Eveything i wish to tell,so hear me out

2009-06-28T14:03:00.000+08:00

That in the picture above is Marcus aka FAT CAT.He is the youngest in my class and this is the boy that tires me out everyday.He doent know how to talk yet so all he does is cry.And the only way i can shut him up is food.I'll purposely take a biscuit and "Maaaarrrrccccussss.Come here come.Mamam".Being the muncher that he is of course he'll be running around after me.Kesian ni anak :)

I'm always with the younger ones in the center but that doesnt mean i don't handle the older ones.Sometimes thay are being caught off guard;which is a padan muke situation.Good to say that i've remembered 80% of the whole center children's name.And i've got a few names in the center.The K2 and K1 calls me Miss Fana.The N2 and N1 calls me either Ms Fana or Ms Hana.And my toddlers class?They will go around calling me Nana.Mcm suker hati dorang gitu kan but i realli dun mind.So long as they know who i am den that is enuf.What do u expect when they are only below 2 years old?But there is dis particular girl in the N1 class who calls me Ms Flora.How the heck did he get the name?No idea :)

I've got few more days to consider on whether to persue a 2nd diploma.I wanna do it but i dun reali noe whether i can commit.Its a tiring situation everyday and i ain't sure whether i can handle both studies and work.So how now?To persue or not? :)

2009-06-19T18:30:00.000+08:00

What he wrote before he left while i was asleep :)

2009-06-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

My number one favourite person to have beside when driving :)

Do not mind the picture above.It was taken in the middle of the nyte,after we had a loooong walk at ECP.That was idk how many months ago and we had the car to ourselves.I still remember dat nyte very clearly,only bcoz of d wrong reason.The nearest carpark to ECP's Mac was C5 so i parked the car dere and went for supper.Wen we came back,there were only a handful of cars.I noticed that there were people inside the car beside mine,but the position mcm salah lah gtu kan.Mcm biase lah,aku ni kpo sikit so i sticked my face directly at the person's window.And guess apr aku nmpk?Ahpek and China girl making love.And then i shouted"Eeeeeeeeeeee.Disgusting sia."Naturally,the couple would turn ryte.But no,they were to engrossed.Amaciam,best? :)

I've got weird driving habits.And when i drive make sure u shut ur trap and dun say anyting about this n dat unless u r my Mr Ashraf.There was dis once,i was driving n adr member P plate kat depan.I was complaing to the boyfren "Eh slow per budak ni bawak car.Bodoh punye P plate!"He turned and said sumting like "U pon P plate jugak.Same lah u n dier."And u wuldnt wanna noe how long d conversation dragged.I am basically a no patience driver and a lazy one.If i wanna make a left lane change,i'll just say "Abi,can?.Aku malassss nak check mirror n all those tings.N wifout the bf,i simply cant function :)

And i'm still planning to get my OWN car.But all this gotta wait and i think i can just forget bout my 'Car before 21 dream".I know i can always turn to the parents to pay for me but i think its about time dat i learn to be independent.I wanna pay for the full monthly instalments,season parking,road tax,insurance,petrol money,maintenance and blablabla.Maybe the accessories,Mummy wil be kind enuf to sponsor?Aku jealous.Abg aku punye Civic,Mummy paid for him 17/18" rims and the touch screen tingy.Geraammmmm!

The thoughts of getting a 2B is lingering again.How eh? :)

2009-06-11T23:07:00.001+08:00

I'm tired.
I miss my boyrfriend.
And i want the weekends to come fast.
Please? :)

2009-06-05T13:58:00.000+08:00

Things have been diffrent since i started working and its draining every bit of energy i have.I don't go to the out law's house on a daily basis anymore and i don't even meet the boy in the picture above for more than half hour each day other den last Monday.My whole body was aching and instead of watching tv with the boyfren as per normal, i went inside his room and slept til 1030.Penat oiiii :(

I'm now handling K2 and the first time i took over the class,i felt like i was loosing my voice.I was screaming this and that.Sometimes,they act like baboons and they simply cannot sit stil.Aku geraaammm.The more i say no, the more they will do it.So yesterday i conducted my first lesson which was Arts& Crafts-did drawing using the etching method.I didnt have enough black crayons,so at the end of d day many got restless while waiting for their turn.I shall upload their masterpiece one day.Cuteeee lah some of d drawing :)

So,my favourite sentences for this particular K2 are:

1. Dunno how to sit down and cross your leg is it?U think this classroom is a coffeeshop?

2. I can tell u 10 times, 10 times you forget.

3. If i call your name 3 times, you are not going to participate in the activity and you are gonna sit beside me.I'm gonna give you al the attention u want.

And lastly there is theis boy,damn cute aku bilang.He keeps forgetting my name and calls me by another name.

Him:Ms Nora,can you help me?

Me:That is not my name and i'm not gonna help you.And Ms Nora is in the Tots class.I send u to tots class u want?

Him:No.Please teacher.

Me:You get my name right then i'll help u.

While i'm having this conversation, the whole class' concentration is on me.Then i'll purposely say "Class,pls tell your dear friend here what is my name". And the whole class will be saying "Haiyo Yeo Tong.Its Ms Fana".Cuteeee habes :)

Lyk wat i said.I can tell u 10 times and 10 times u forget.

2009-05-24T04:10:00.003+08:00

I very well know that the Singpore Flyer is very very much yesterday but still i wanna go up,up and up.I have been postponing the trip up for as long as i can remember but I still hav my hopes up high eventhough i know that one day i will eventually forget about it.Just like the other places i intented to go :)

I've got a HUGE question;that is why oh why does youngster nowadays like to potray themselves as older then their own age.I for one can't understand why.Make up mcm wayang Cine,piercing sane sini,skip skolah mcm itu skolah mak bapak dier adr share and talk like they have seen the world.I've got people at 13 saying 'I wish i could turn back time and start all over again'.If i was 13,the only reason y i wanna turn back time is bcoz of PSLE.I wish i culd have studied a bit harder n make my parents proud.But no,why do they want to turn back time?To forget 'the love of their life'.Nyahahhaha.Joke of the year.The younger generation never fail to amaze me :)

The other day while in the train,there was a group of teenagers (i think around 14 or 15 yrs old?) in front of me discussing about Motorcycle.Cute nak mampos i tell u.Among them, there was this couple who both were on the overweight side.Bukan nyr nak pasang telinga lah,but member dah kat depan kan.The boy looked at the girl den said "B,i rase i nak beli sports bike lah.KR ke TZM ke,apr2 lah asalkan sports bike.Abeh i nak jack blakang den i nak tarok 1 seater.Baru best i naik ngn u,lagi mampat".At that very moment i felt like bursting into laughter.Not to mengkeji but,with that size?1 seater?Ni real ke tak ni?Bukan nak mengata dorang ah coz aku pon kadang2 cannot fit into 1 seat.Nyahahhahaha :)

I've got a 16 pending lessons plans.Nak help? ")

"I'm happy coz I know that my used to be good friend can take care of my best friend well."
Friday.

2009-05-14T13:08:00.001+08:00

This is a sort off overdued post but i really don't care.Who reads this blog aniways ryte?The picture above,well,that is the mainland at 0902 hours on Saturday.And where the heck was i?On the ferry towards St John Island for a fishing trip with the out laws :)

The day didnt start well coz i think it rained the nyte before.The weather was cooling and blablabla therefore explains the 'engine susah nak start' syndrome wen i tried to wake up.I was down waiting for d bf at 7 but he only arrived half hour later,naik jer darah aku.After grabbing 'breakfast' at Delifrance we went back to Tj and continued our way to Marina South pier.It was my first time there so jakun sikit lah kan.But because i was with the out laws no monkey-ing around with the bf.Kalau tak,habes ashraf aku tarik sane sini. :)

There were three main activities that was done at the Island.U either fish or swim or do nothing.I was more of a do nothing person but i accompanied the bf to fish n also entertain wateva stupid ideas that were in our minds.Sebab kite ni bnyk sngt energy at first,we went walking around and i think we covered d whole island.Penat oiii.Turon naik bukit.We even went go carik d camp site where we had our Sec 3 camp.But by d end of d day i was pretty much drained out n didnt hav d energy to do anyting else therefore explaining our dissapearance while everyone was at the aunt's house.We were back at home, in front of the tv,both half asleep and eating Macdonald.Pathetic habes :)

And if you were wondering if the weather was terrible there,guess wat,its not.It was much2 more cooling there.I was telling the boyfren that i'd rather sit at the water breaker with him at 12pm than walk down Orchard Road at 12pm.The mainland's heat is much2 more unbearable tauuu.There is actualy a lot more pictures that i'd love to upload but due to the besar nak mampos picture size,aku adr sikit malas nk resize n post.Maybe next tym lar horrr :)

And to the boy who took 3 days to notice that his girlfriend's skin was darker than before,i've got only one thing to say.U very gong-gong lehh.But stil despite of your gong-gongness,kamu tetap aku sayang many2 :)

2009-05-07T14:26:00.000+08:00

As i'm typing this post,i'm supposed to have my shower or iron my clothes or at least open the door of my messy cupboard and pull out something to wear.I've been in front of this laptop for the past 3 hours,supposedly doing my Curriculum Planning but i've been very lazy.I've been downloading songs(LEGALLY) from some artist i haven't even heard off.I'm bored and i need my boyfriend's lecturer to let him off so we could go out earlier :)

So today's agenda would be to go Kelantan Lane to get stuffs that have been put on hold for a very long time.And i hope there would be no hiccups for today's plan.And then i would like to have lunch at Zam Zam?Then i would like to go to ProDesign to get more stickers.And thereafter,i think we will be making our way home or somewhere else that is convenient to start working on our assignments.I've got 20 lessons plans to prepare and he has got sketches and i dunno what else.I really need to start working on the assignment because they challenged me to hand in my assignment on the dateline.I've never been handing up my assignment on the dateline.I'm always the last few to submit :)

Speaking of the devil,the devil just texted me that he would be here in another 10 minutes.Mati aku!I'm ssooooooo lateeee.And no,my boyfren is not a devil-figure of speech :)

2009-05-05T10:20:00.000+08:00

"You go walk from one end of east coast to the other end at see whether there are any other 3 people in a group who are so multiracial.If u can find,i give you money".

This is a very overdue-ed post coz it happened on Thursday,the eve of labour day.We were a group of five on that night-plus Vani's husband and brother.And those bottles and cans,I DIDN'T TOUCH them.Sejahat-jahat aku,aku tak minum.It nvr once crossed my mind.Dosa besarrr oiiii.I was just high on coke and something else.The night was filled with laughter and nonsense.Too bad we had to leave early.Anak mak ni adr curfew :)

Without the other two,i dunno how i would survive the daily lectures.We pratically do everything together from Monday to Friday,130-6.One person's problem becomes the others problem too.Simply said,there are no secrets between us.And i thank the one above for giving me such great friends.From Secondary school to ITE and now to Diploma.

I know i haven't been spending time with any other people other than my boyfriend.I wish i could but the timings clashes every time.A message from May made me realised how much i have been missing out from the p.O.g's outings.I'll make it upsomehow.....

2009-04-30T14:50:00.002+08:00

The weight issue have been around for the longest time around.To be exact,it have always been an issue in my life.I was never been that skinny one or in the acceptable range.I have always been the plump,chubby and overweight person.Being the last child in the family,i was being pampered.Be it in physically or emotionally.I was always fed with whatever i wanted.So that very well explains my overweight syndrome.

I still remember in Primary school,my weight was way overr.My sis-in-law who is 14years older den me was way lighter den i was.I was always in the TAF club.Personally,i really think TAF club is an emotionally daunting experience.Ask anyone who have been a part of this so called Trim And Fit club.It realy affects your self esteem and confidence.Put aside the humiliation one goes through when he/she enters the TAF club, one has to endure with the name calling.I have gone through all that.From the 'Gemuk' to "Montel to "Fat Pig" and so on.And if u put the term TAF club backwards,what do u get?FAT club.So,what does it really mean?

Lets admit it,the society doesn't accept overweight people.No matter how pretty one can be, but when she is on the overweight side,she still gets ridiculed.And those thin people,even if they not that good looking they still get credits.Y?Because they are not overweight.They have that 'perfect slender' body.And in this society,if you are plus size,means you are plus size.No arguments.Who is to balme for this name calling world?The fashion industry?What the hell is size 0?0 is not actually a number.Since people are getting more skinny why don't you just start inventing negative sizes.I'm sure there are still a lot of souls who are prepared to get there :)

Lets put aside this topic because i can go on and on :)
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2009-04-16T11:42:00.000+08:00

In this picture you can very see the keboncetan in me.Apparently i've been gaining weight like nobody's business.I eat like a cow and i cant stop eating.And the bf,being the nice one,will always bring me to anywhere i feel like having my meal at.See what love has done?And Ashraf,kasi balik my baju lah.I keep arguing wif him dat d shirt he was wearing was too small for him n d shirt i was wearing was big on me.Padahal both wearing size S.Ni how ni? :)

I know Fast and Furious 4 is sooo yesterday but i still wish to talk about it because i really think the movie was a dissapointment(to me).There was not much cars to look at and d storyline was just ok n y oh y does Letty have to die?Stoooopppiiiddd scriptwiter or whoever it is.There should be a sequel again ryte?And in d movie,it is said dat "Muscle always wins over import".If given an opportunity,i would want to drive a muscle.Tapi maner nak carik eh? ;)

Him:To you,pretty ke that girl?
Me:How i noe.U were d one who said she was pretty.N sorry,i dun judge how pretty a girl is when she is wearing make up.
A simple question that led to something even bigger.And no,it didnt end up with an argument.It led to something that warms my heart :)

And i've come to realise that i spend my nights at Taman Jurong more.I'll be either at the out-laws house or the aunt's place.After class,i'll drag my feet to the station,board d train and stand all d way to Lakeside.Very d memenatkan n d mengbingitkan.And on top of dat,i've to squeeze my way into the bus.With all d pushing,lagi melemaskan.Can SBS pls provide anoher bus that goes to TJ frm Jurong other den 98?So Ain,kau rase Tharman approve tak kalau aku appeal for PR?Nyahahhaahha :)

Have you seen the Peugeot GTi?

2009-04-12T14:46:00.001+08:00

After a looong time,i finally went back to kampung for aunt's wedding.I can't even remember when was the last tym i went back there.The house definitely,sumhow,i dunno how looks a lot bigger?Just the outside part that is.I had to miss the akad nikah bcoz i went wif brother and the little monsters.Directing him back to kampung was stressful bcoz he gets grumpy wen he doesn't know the directions.Pain in the ass i tell you.Adr GPS pon tak gune.Last2 aku yang jadi the most reliable GPS :)

The little monsters were as always being the monsters.It was their first time balik kampung.So seeing how big the house was,they ran around like babboons and as effective as i have always been,i culdnt keep track of them.I gave up after a while and minded my own business,jadi unofficial photographer.Was there for a few hours only and we headed back at around midnight.But i got to stay for the malam berinai session or apr2 lah the name is.I find it interesting as not a lot of people are doing this kinda ting in this '21st century' :)

In the above picture,the one in black,that is my uncle-my BIGGEST crush.I have had a crush on him since forever lah.Dun ask me,why of all people my uncle.He pangkat only pakcik,but i call him abang.Our age difference is just a few years.But he is already engaged to his stick thin fiancee.Sumpah tak bedek,stick thin is the best way to describe her.She damn skinny,mcm batang lidi berjalan.Nyahahahaha.Biadab aku.Bakal makcik tauuu.And Eza mulut kau masin eh.Just that time u asked me dah tak jumpe uncle lagi,skali smlm baru jumpe.Ask me lah bnyk2 tyms lagi.Maner tau blh jumpe lagi ;)

Mummy n Daddy,biler nak go kampung Indonesia pulak?That one,one of the best way to destress.No electricity,mandi at perigi n d best part nyamuk!Its just you and the nature.Itu baru aku panggil kampung :)

2009-04-09T00:51:00.000+08:00

Fast and furious in less than 24 hours.
New cars,original models and of course the man himself-Vin Diesel.
And no,i aint there to only watch Vin Diesel and Brian O' Conner.
I'm there to watch all the beautifully modified cars and of course the race.
And i'd like to agree with what Michelle Rodrigues said on the interview on 8 days.
I shall be a very happy girl after the movie.
I sooooooo can't wait.

Ps:Watch out for the above featured car in the movie :)
Know or not what model? :)

2009-03-30T01:25:00.003+08:00

Ini honest speaking,from the bottom of my heart,i hav lost all the desire dat i once had to get a DSLR.After much deliberation n a whole lot of arguing wif myself,i believe its a more of a want then a need.Wats d point of having one wen u dun hav d tym to use it?I'd rather buy a PS3 or Nintendo Wii or puas hati go for a short holiday.Lagi memuaskan hati :)

School have been a drag.Assignments have been piling up,one after d othr and i juz cant seem to find d motivation to get my brain werking.But THANK GOD i'm over n done wif d Maths assignment.A BIG THANK YOU to my darling bf n of course the mother-out-law for being very understanding;allowing me to dominate the house for d whole day.And by d end of dat day,her living room was in a mess.Next up would be finishing Music&Movement den Art den study for d exam and 3 more modules n dats it.Goodbye MMI n hello RTRC.N dis tym,i aim to pay for my own fees.Insyaallah :)

At times,wen i m on d bike,i wuld b asking myself those what if questions.what if this is my last ride wif him?what if this is the last tym i'm gonna see him?The last wikend,one of my what ifs almost came true.This stupid apek driving a silver Altis almost hit us when he was trying to lane change.Chevron marking pon blom lepas lah oii.But thank god the bf managed to swerve to d right.My heart almost dropped.Abeh d Apek face mcm tak bersalah gtu.BODOH PUNYE BABI.If we were to get hit,i can assure u 100% plus chop,we wouldnt be on planet earth ryte now.We would have at least flown a few metres(i would have flown higher n longer),land on ground,get run over by d oncoming traffic and die due to the injuries.But ajal maut di tangan Tuhan ryte?And i nvr fail to tank GOD each tym i wake up to still be alive :)

So,the big question now is-when lah nak pass 3C?And Ashrafff,2A wen lah?I nak super 4 ke,GSR ke or apr tu lagi 1.Forget the model oreadi.Boleh?Boleh?Boleh?Den after dat,i nak my Mitsubishi(insert Model here) or Version R or maybe kalau nak feeling2 kejap,Beemer or wat.Banyak lah sngt duit kite ehhhh :)

You are not stupid.Everybody is born clever.Its just that you are not exposed to the environment enough to give you the opportunity to maximise the potential in you.
-shana

2009-03-12T23:22:00.000+08:00

Me:I missed my bus.
Him:Den how?Nevemind,i'll be there in 10 mins.

That is what happened for most of last few week.Its a daily routine for me to call him wen i reach the bus stop but for idk wat reason,i kip missing the bus 60% of d tym.So,my lovely plus kind boyfren will offer to send me to school.Sometimes,wen i end class he will be down there waiting for me.And mind you,i'm nt taking advantage ok.He is doing it willingly :) So,tell me how can i not love this boy? :)

So the much awaited and needed getaway Saturday had to be postponed.I again blame the downpour.The day started with us going to the service centre to collect his Hp.Wen we exited the place,it was all bright with no traces of black clouds or wat so ever and so we decided to head back to TJ to kill some time.We watched TV and blablabla and juz as we exited the house,it started to drizzle.Suay nak mampus.Mum-out-law was against the idea of us going out but being the keras kepale dat we were,we juz headed off.We wanted to go to ECP or sumwhere nice n quiet but we ended up at where i didnt wanna be.The ohsofamous Jurong Point.Sesak nafas aku jalan sane.I was too lazy to walk around anymore after quite sum tym and we headed back to TJ n spent the rest of d nyte watching my Super ex girlfriend.Aku geraamm at d end of the day.So,PLEASE let this Saturday work out :)

School have been a drag lately.Assignments are piling up one by one and the best thing is I have not even started on the assignment that is due Monday.Summary of the assignment?"Science in Preschool setting".Anybody wanna help?

Ni serius nyr bebual,mcm mane nak loose weight?

Oh yes.I've got a new baby :) :) :)

2009-03-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

Do u dig it?

School have been very hectic especially this Math module.So many things to do in so little time and sometimes i feel like killing myself while i am in class.Domino cards,countables,grid chart and blablablabla,all laminated(the most expensive module yet).Who would have thought bcoming a preschool teacher would be this kecoh kan?Mr Ash have been a kind soul helping me in a lot of ways.Nasib baik member holiday :)

Saturday was the much awaited day because it was my darling Nitish's birthday.He is sum sort like my godson lah.He has two godmums,both of the different race.One of his godmum is Malay,the other is Chinese and his birth mother is Indian.Multi racial habes.Mr Ash labelled us as Nitish's angel :) Nitish turned one and his party was kinda huge in a way,evryting costing Vani $7-8K.Boleh pengsan aku dengar the money spent.We got for him NIKE sandals which was very cute and he wore it during the party with his Ralp Lauren suit but we didnt get to see it as we hav already left.I can't wait to meet him because the little one has learn to walk and according to his Mum,he looks like a drunkard.Drunkard Fatty.Nyahahhaha. :)

I can't wait for the weekends to come because i REALLY need to go out and have a good tym.And i pray to GOD that it doesn't rain on that day.I dun wanna be stuck in the rain under some bridge,all drenched while waiting for the rain to stop which i very well know it won't.Sungguh membingitkan.We haven't plan anyting yet so far but i just wanna go somewhere far from the city but STILL in Singapore.Nak go holiday,no money and no time yet.Mana mau go eh? :)

If you r wondering wat the heck in the world is the picture about,its actually Nadirah's mouth filled with chewed Oreo.This girl would do anyting for this Auntie of hers.Say it and she would do it :)

Badan aku skrg dah mcm gajah and rambut dah mcm berus.

Mcm mane nak loose weight?

Saper2 nak sponsor aku go rebond for the 1278th tym?

2009-02-23T23:58:00.000+08:00

The ring obviously have been abused by both its owners.We both have chips and scratches on it and we have only been using it for less than 6 mnths.Only GOD noes wat will happen to it for the next half a year and so on :)

Yesterday turned out to be totally unplanned.Because of the rain,we decided to skip our initial plan and ended up at Taman Jurong.We were drenched n i lost my mood when we reached his place.Imagine AYE to PIE to Jurong East to Taman Jurong on the bike and the rain was quite heavy.Had dinner at KFC den played games at the arcade which was depressing because the game kinda suck in a way.After which I got my McFlurry after and we took a long walk home.We were back to his place just in tym for Shark Tale.Made a move only after the mother-out-law came home because aku taknak kurang ajar in a way.Have i told u how regular i have been at Block 347?Kan Ashraf kan? :)

So the very generous boyfren of mine got for me my first pair of Birkenstock.Fana happy alam.I couldnt stop smiling after he paid for it.I kept asking him "Ni boleh tak?" or "U serious per?" before the purchase coz the price was kinda overwhelming.Even my mum refuse to get for me lah.And love,you know i wont stop at one ryte?For sure i wuld get many more pairs of birks and papillio.And u r on probation for 6 mnths and u r not allowed to get for me anyting during dis period of tym.Instead u can go do something to lion :)

tell me how can i not love you?

2009-02-21T12:53:00.000+08:00

1.I wanna go shopping

2.I wanna buy my Evo RS.

3.I need to decide whether i should get my 2nd diploma A.S.A.P

4.I need to do something to my hair.

And lastly

5.I NEED TO LOOSE WEIGHT.

How?No.5 achievable or not?

2009-02-09T23:17:00.001+08:00

Personally,i really find the picture sweeeettttt :)See how much they have aged but they are still together.One cannot help but pray that the current or future relationship they are or will be in will last until eternity :)

I love people watching.And this habit started only because friends who i go out with are not punctual.What else is to do right?I'll plug in my ear phones and just people watch.I've seen a lot of things and during the process,sometimes,i get to learn a new thing or two.And when you people watch scenes can vary from just a something as simple as a kid running around,(but after a while it gets irritating because the kid will tend to scream while running) to somethig as complex as a couple fighting right in front of my eyes.But this is far more irritating because they will make it as though they want to let the whole world know that they are fighting.But nevertheless,people watching is fun.Maybe you should try someday :)

I do a lot of things on impluse.Example,that post if by chance you read it on Saturday.That post was some sort of my way to vent the anger.But i guess some ass seen it as an opportunity to 'sabo' me and went to 'report strength' to ash at three in the morning.And boy,you are an ass.That post was meant to get deleted but before i could,ash said he was making his way to my place already.So,in another words the problem was solved soon after the post was up.I repeat,boy,you are an ass :)

And in case you were wondering,everything is perfectly fine.A phone call from an ass cum a phatetic loser like you can't bring us down.I admit it did shake us a bit at first and kudos to you if u felt some kind of accomplishment.Maybe you are that much of a no lifer that you have to go around poking your nose in my life,our lives.Give me your number,or wait maybe i have your number already(i think)so that i could give you daily or better,hourly updates on my life?Wouldn't it be just nice?You can go around poking your nose into my life.You are so darn phatetic that i feel like buying you a vanilla flavoured ice cream :)

2009-02-08T13:38:00.003+08:00

To the person who called up my boyfriend at 3 in the morning,SCREW YOU.

May you fall down a flight of stairs,break a bone or two and bleed profusely from the nose.And maybe,just maybe you will have a concusion that will last for three weeks.And if that's not enough,maybe the whole falling process will get repeated over and over again.

And that will not stop until you have the balls to personally call ME and explain to me why the hell in the world did you call him up.

I believe I know who you are.

Lastly,babi per perangai kau.Ah kau ah yang tak bermoral call org at 3 in the mrng.Besar punye bodoh.

2009-02-08T03:21:00.000+08:00

Babi per perangai kau?

2009-02-01T16:21:00.002+08:00

Dear Mr Sunshine,i'm having a love hate relationship with your hair.I really don't know whether i should ask u to cut ur hair or not.Sometimes,ur hair irritate me but at tyms mcm handsome pulak.No,not you.Jangan nak feeling,its the hair :)So,how now? :)

I think me and the boyfren are two boring people who always go to the same places every Saturday.We don't celebrate V.day and we don't celebrate apr tu korang panggil?Monthsary eh?Hahaa.I personally think its a stupid idea.So,if mengikut kiraan bdk2,yesterday was supposed to be our 13th monthsary.And how did we spent it?We went to Bukit Merah which was a total waste of tym because the workshop was closed.Then we made our way to Vivo to have our 'dinner' and where we spent the time at Toys R Us looking at bike and car models.Then we went to PageOne coz the boyfren wanted to get his Magazine.After we got it,we went outside,sat at the open area,took out the mag and read it.Nak tau mag apr?MOTOR CULTURE.Very the menyeronokkan :)

We made a move back to TJ i wanted to get sumting and after dat done,being the aimless souls that we were,we headed back to my place and played UNO at the void deck.So,dat was how i celebrated my monthsary.Nyahhahaha.Actually no.That is how every Saturday is for us :)

So,Mr Sunshine,can i please have my Crocs and my Animal shirt?Can ahhhhhhh.Tak mahal laaahhhh.Boleh eyh? :)

2009-01-28T22:34:00.000+08:00

INTRODUCING MY 3 NIECES AND 1 NEPHEW.

[its quite a lengthy post though :) ]

This is Nazihah Amirah and she is turning FIVE this year.The start of the 'irritating and no more cute days' in my view.She is the eldest among the four of them and i personally think she acts NOT like her age.She doesn't cry much,she doesn't demand for many things and she always gives in to the younger ones.But there are days when she will lose it and acts as the 'mastermind' of the mischevious acts that younger ones do.She is SMART and she is always on the move to learn new things.Knowing that this aunt of hers is a preschool teacher,she always come up to me and will ask me to teach her.Be it Mathematics or Language skills,she always wants to learn more.She is very much interested in photography since a year ago.She loves being the one both in front or behind the camera.Just give her a camera,any camera and she will go snapping away :)I have this absurb dream of making her the front page model of HOT STUFF magazine in 15 years time.And this one here calls Mr Sunshine Uncle Ash :)

And this boy here,the only boy among the four siblings is Naufal Amir-the crybaby.Sumpah tak bedek.He is FOUR this year but he have already stepped out of the 'Cute world'.Only because we have never regard him as the cute boy but instead we refer him as the handsome one.He even said to me "Abg hansome kan".He is very lazy when it comes to studying part but when it comes to play time,i'll surrender first.He will run around the place as though he have been cooped up at home for the past year.But hey,children learn best through play right?So,i'll let him be while he is in the preschool years.This boy year is very stubborn and things will only go his way and plus he is very stingy.He is the number one bully and number one biter.He has interests in cars(those all dressed up cars) and have a dream to learn how to play the drums.And for this boy here i have this absurb dream of making him the next Hafiz Koh.This one here calls Mr Sunshine,well i really don't know.Wait,i think its Uncle Ash also :)

And thirdly,we have Nadirah Amirah the sweetest of them all who is turning THREE this year.My number one favourite.This one here never fails to light up the room with her smile and laughter.She pretty much is the "Mini me".The very tomboy-ish one,the one who finds playing with cars more interesting than barbie dolls and etc.But despite of that,she also likes the 7 princess and sometimes plays with the dolls.She is the very easy one,she doesn't cry,she don't throw tantrums.And though she is being potrayed as the small size,very skinny girl,she eats a lot.She just enjoys good food,actually any food will do so long as its not spicy.She seems very interested in studying especially when it involves hands on materials and she always go to her kakak to ask her to teach her new things.And for this one,i have the absurb dream of making her walk the runway and represent Singapore in Miss Universe.And this one here,she calls Mr Sunshine Uncle BB :)

And last but not least,this is the newest addition to the family-Nabilah Amirah.She is turning ONE this year but currently she is three months old,I can't say much about her because all she do all day long is sleep,drink milk and cry.But she is the carbon copy(looks wise) of the 2nd sister.And i have yet to have an absurb dream for her.Maybe become the Malay Stefanie Sun? :)

And there you go,my three monyets and one in the making.Though my mum don't take care of them,they come every weekend and fill up the house with their screams and laughters.No matter how naughty they get,i'll still love them the same.And i,wait,i mean the whole family prays very hard that there will be no baby no.5.But if terhave than its just rezeki Allah ryte?Oh yes,this gundus call me "Cik Adik".Weird name ryte?But cool haper.Maner adr orang use this name kan?If Diah has her Nadyas,i have my Amirahs and Amir :)

2009-01-19T22:08:00.001+08:00

Meet my new best friend,Mr Nescafe.But i only drink Latte and original flavour.Ini sume ashraf punye pasal lah,kasi aku minum coffee.Hahaa :)

So today was the first day of school after one and a half months.I dreaded this day to come bcoz dah naik lemak kan duduk rumah.I woke up super early today only because Mum forgot that my class only starts at 130.Though i woke up early,i was still late and then resulted in me cabbing to school which was totally very the expected.Class was okay i guess and the one teaching was a new lecturer.She was a bit less strict and i have got a presentation due Friday.Mcm siakens teramat.But nevemind.Lets remain optimistic here.6 more months and i will have the diploma in my hands.So,sesiape nak join i take Bachelors Of Science In Early Childhood?Nak?Tak expensive lah.24k jer :)

Mum:Adik,kau nak pegi mane?

Me:Pegi skolah lah.

Mum:Pakai gini?

Me:Abeh?

I was in my Puma bermudas,black lycra tee and my $6 slippers from Far East Plaza.I don't give a damn about how i dress to school.Yes,i am schooling in Orchard,the heart of the city where all the hot hip cool and happening things are going on.But seriously,saya tak kisah.I am there to STUDY.And how i dress to Jurong Point is exactly how i dress to school.Bottom line,i don't care,my mum doesn't and obviously my boyfren doesn't care to :)

Mr Ash,saya sayang banget sama kamu :)

2009-01-12T22:10:00.006+08:00

Can somebody explain to me the fun of marrying young?

Don't mind the above italics.I just see a rising trend in either getting engaged or marrying young and sometimes i wonder apr agaknyr feeling eh kahwin young2.And i got no intention,not even a hundredth of an inch close to the idea of getting engaged or getting married in this very near future.I masih nak enjoy oiiii :)

Lets skip the marriage part and talk bout the license.The much awaited license which i obviously still haven't get simply because I've put the idea of getting the license as soon as possible on hold because i'm waiting for the bf to start his.Kalau part 2A tak suroh pon sendiri pegi jugak,but if part Class 3,tunggu Santa Claus kurus aku rase.Tak pon,tunggu aku kurus tak?Hahaaa :)

I have totally changed my choice of car.I wanna get the Honda Accord Euro version.Punye lah hensem lagi2 if plus the bodykit and the whole idea of black on black.Even the boyfren agrees to it kan?But logically speaking,that is never gonna happen.The parents have said to me that part car they lepas tangan.They will only pay for my downpayment and the rest is up to me.So,back to reality,license get first, den can talk about buying car horr.Tak mau angan2 jer lebih,last2 yang dikejar tak dapat,yang digendong keciciran.I think that is how the peribahasa goes?Kan? :)

Good night pretty and handsome people :)

ilovetheboyfren :)

2009-01-08T15:19:00.002+08:00

I miss the kids like banyak2 lah.See the boy in the picture above?When i was doing my practicum,he was 'my shadow'.He pratically follows me around.He cries a lot but be aint no pushover.And the boy in the Ferrari jacket is mynumberone favourite.My darling Gideon.He pronounces Ferarri as Fur-yaa-yii.Evrytym he says that i will laugh and he being the gundu he is will laugh together wif me.And this two are the wrestling champions in my class.But whenever they fight,and when i am just about to scold them,they will look at me with the most innocent face and say "Sorry Nana.No do again".I miss being around kids :)

It have been 4 days.4 days since what?Since my boyfriend commenced school and since then i have been dead bored.Usually he will be the one entertaining my stupid out of the mind behaviour the whole day.But now,i have to wait til the weekends.Itu pun kalau member tak penat.I've got a week and a half before i start school.And after that it will be 6 mnths of continous torture of lectures then i am graduating with a Diploma :)

Dun mind the skin hor.Its still under construction lah.I lazy wanna do fancy2 skin for now.Maybe when i got the tym coz right now i'm rushing to meet the bf who will be here in 5 mins.Perangai eh akuu.Or better still,i wont be doing anything further to this :)

Anybody got lobang for vacancy for Kindergarten teacher? :)

2009-01-01T17:20:00.003+08:00

Family keeps me grounded and for this new year,my resolution is to spend more time if possible with the family.People always assume that i'm rich but truth is i'm not.I guess i'm just lucky because Mum has good financial skills and therefore dat allows me to buy almost all the things i want.Syukur Alhamdulilah.See the little monster in the picture?That is the niece-Nadirah Amirah.She calls the bf Uncle Abi and she is the numberonefavourite for us.And she is gonna be staying here from Monday onwards.Gembira habes :)

My new year celebration was awesome.The day started with me going to Ash's place to meet his Mum-sort off.Then we made our way to Suntec to watch Yes Man which to us was a great movie.Hilarious nak mampos.After the movie,initial plan was to dine in at Pizza Hut but the queue was panjang oiii.In fact,it was pack at every food outlets.So,last resort Burger King at Millenia Walk.It was almost empty there.But the highlight of the day was the very tapi tak sangat lah romantic night at East Coast Park.If not for his relatives surrounding us,dah lama aku timang2 matair aku.Orang lain tengok fireworks,we watched flares being shot from the ships.Lame tapi cool.So,in short my new year was spent wif d boyfren's family :)

And glad to say he loved the things i got for him and i totally loved the things he bought for me.My sweet ass boyfren got me the Animal bag i wanted for so long at the Everlast watch.Ramai jam aku eyh :)

2008-12-31T11:26:00.000+08:00

Cause you bring out the best in me

like no one else can do

thats why i'm by your side

i love you

To the one man i never thought i would ever be with

Happy 1st year Anniversary :)

2008-12-24T03:42:00.001+08:00

Goodbye P plate and goodbye messy paintwork.Though u have a new coat of paint on you now,which i obviously I like way better,i'll miss the whole white black idea.And i'm so freaking glad that the owner went ahead wif my idea though i was half kidding.I loveeeeee u!(No,not you lah Ashraf,your bike) :)

I am going karaoke-ing with the family later and i'm supposed to pick up the naughty niece at 10 later.But its 330 and i can't sleep.So i doubt i can make it on time.Nazihah Amirah,your auntie is realli2 sorry for being late and for not having the mood to layan you later.I can't sleep and i am cracking my brains on what to get for Ashraf for next week.I've got 6 days to figure out what to buy and to make it worst,i am going over to his place on the day itself.Depan mak dier oiiiiiii.Mati kau fana :(

Singapore Flyer is not functioning like how it is supposed to be for the past a lot of hours and poor passengers are stuck inside the cabin.And how i wish i was in it.Cool kan,paid $29.50 for a half hour ride but at last got more den 5 hours on it.Nyahahahhaha :)

Ok dah :)

2008-12-18T08:41:00.004+08:00

To chop or not to chop?Maybe i should,since its so mengrimaskan.But again the perasaan syg mcm overwhelming gtu.This is the longest length i've kept since two or three years.The boyfren will say 'Suke hati u lah' den d rest wuld say 'eh,tak mau'.How how how?Mau perrrr??? :)

I almost gave in to tempations not once but four times today within a few hours.But nasib baik iman ada kuat sikit today.If not there will be a big hole in my pocket.I almost bought that casio watch.I almost bought my RS.I almost bought that Roxy shirt.And lastly,i almost bought for him that Sony gadget.If muhdashraf was not beside me,i would have bought at least 2 things.But i figured out that tings lyk dis hav to wait.Wat is d point of buying all this when i am rarely gonna use it.But that Sony is definitely a must :)

And i'm pretty sure by the end of this year i will have a new wishlist with the RS as my 1st priority.Its a NEED not a want.And the wishlist will be filled with many nonsensical things that i bet is not even relevant to the everyday context.But what the hack lah hor :)

So how?Nak chop ke tak? ;)

And i love my boyfren :)

2008-12-15T23:32:00.002+08:00

Say hello to the newest edition to the watch collection.I think this is the most i have ever spent on a watch.Cannot take it lah this one.The collection before this can tahan though i really liked the red one.But this one,its GOLD.So mcm harus dibeli gitu lah.I was contemplating on whether to get this one or the all time favourite Casio.Bt i figured out this is waaaayyyyy more worth it.So,y not kan.Its a good deal :)

And i bet the boyfren wants to get angry about this purchase but he really can't do much about it because he knows how much i wanted a new watch ever since I got him his G Shock watch.When i first learnt bout the latest edition for the Adidas watch,i pratically demanded him to bring me to JP but they only had the Gold one and so this very sweet boyfren of mine brought me to Vivo juz to see whether they had the other 3 colours.I bet hee was even prepared to go to all the watch dealers just so I can have a look at all the 4 colours together.Nasib baik Vivo adr,kalau tak kering lah tank abg kiter.He teman-ed me looking at all kinds of watches for a good half hour and continued to layan all my whinings bout how much i want the watch even after a few hours.So tell me how can i not love this boy? :)

And next up i want to have:
1)iwatch
2)ODM
3)Levi's
4)Nike
5)Casio
and lastly of course
that his&hers GSHOCK :)

Ok dah :)

Oh yes,i love my muhdashraf :)

2008-12-07T20:29:00.000+08:00

Sometimes don't you just wish life is like a bed of roses?
Mine is not exactly like one right now.
But hey,what the heck right?
Oh yes,i love you :)

2008-11-25T02:22:00.003+08:00

A very bad suay nak mampus Monday.First,i woke up late for class.Second,i had a tiff with Mr Ash soon after i woke up.Sungguh the tak needed.Third,i missed the bus and that resulted in me cabbing to school.Then i gave the taxi driver the wrong directions.Fourth,i almost fall down a flight of stairs because i was busy thinking bout something.And lastly,i took the wrong bus home.Inspite of Daddy's explanation of the difference in 502A and 502B,si biol ni terlupe and took d 502A home.Last2 drop at Boon Lay,besar punye biol.And Daddy is not my dad,its his.Sebab he is good looking despite of his age,itu pasal aku panggil Daddy instead of his usual name :)

Sister had her engagement ceremony yesterday and it was an all family affair with the exception of sister's good friends.Too bad Mr Ash couldnt be part of it since he was caught up wif his designing stuffs.It was her engagement cum her 26th birthday cum the parents' 34th anniversary.We had 3 different cakes,each with different flavouring.Meriah sungguh majlis nyr.But it was fun meeting up wif d relatives tapi apa kan daya pakcik nyr yang hot hip cool and happenning tak hadir.Ok,diam.Nyahhahaha.Happy to say whatever pictures i too turn out to be not as bad as i thought they would be since almaklumlah,saya kan photographer tak menjadi dan tak akn terjadi pon. And aku suke teramat2 wif d picture kat atas tuuuu... :)

Oh yes,on a final note.If all the pictures you take are of a camera phone quality and you are more on the editing side,what is the point of having a DSLR?You take a picture and then rely on your editing skills to make the picture look more professional.tell me lah,what is the point?Puas hati dat 2k,pegi buat amal kebajikan kan.Just because everybody else has a DSLR,doesnt mean you have to be just like them and you suddenly have an interest in photography.Ini name nyr,no self identity.Mcm org gunting fringe bangs,dier pon ikot same lah :)

Azuraaaaa suke dpt cincin on Saturday?Both of you owe me ONE HUGE GIGANTIC LAGI BESAR DARI INI UNIVERSE tauuu.And Zura's bf,u owe me the most.Eh,itelur lagik pe?Nyahahhaha :)

Ok dah :)

2008-11-12T00:34:00.000+08:00

I ain't a fan of true love and i personally don't believe in it.I am more of a if it is meant to be than it will be kinda person.How do you know whether that someone is really true to you?I believe that everybody has skeletons in their closets.You lie to your other significant one to save your ass a lot of times.Sometimes something even as simple as " My ex boyfriend/girlfriend pm-ed me on MSN.Not a big deal right?Aiyah,save the effortNo nid to tell lah".Believe me its a DEAL when the word ex is involved.And like how the malay saying goes sepandai-pandai tupai melompat akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua :)

Apparently,some people in the circle of friends have been stereotyping me.You got no idea what they label me as.The funny thing is that I am some sort off not bothered by the label as perangai mereka sendiri tunggang langgang.Sorry,but i don't have any respect for people who (insert your own interpretation here).Lucky you are mine and the boyfriend's FRIEND.Kalau tak dah long2 aku kasi kau Forum.And because i don't bother about people like you,i shall not waste my energy and time :)

I admit i used to have a male best friend and we had some sort off something going on back then but it is HISTORY now.Its a past and what the future holds i don't want to imagine because the present itself is haywire.And yes,he is my Friday.No names shall be mentioned because i think some of you know who he is.So Friday,selamat! :)

And the boyfriend have been really kind and i mean it.Though sometimes he gets on my nerves but i believe that when you have that kind of thing going on,it makes us a lot more closer.We bicker a whole lot but it is just a for fun thing;no harm intented.Put all of our differences aside,i believe we will make it through.Not everything but maybe most of it :)

And i don't care whether you say i ain't good enough for my boyfriend because apparently he thinks otherwise.You are merely a bystander in my life so,shut up already.I don't need your phatetic unuseful thoughts.Hahaaa.I feel so evil.But seriously,i don't care.Ikut cara kamu loh :)

Ok dah :)

2008-11-06T16:05:00.000+08:00

It has been a looot of while since i had a proper update-been reali busy.From 0800-1730 everdyday for the past 1 1/2 months.Imagine urself handling more den 15 jumping 2-4 year olds everyday from 0800-1230,with at least five of dem wailing.Den after dat u have to rush for the daily lectures at the oh so famous Orchard Towers.Yeah,wats so hard about taking care of kids right?They are so cute and chubby and wateva positive things that comes into mind.But spend a week wif dem den tell me whether they are still as adorable.But hey,its the line of proffesion i've choosen ryte? :)

I am overly jealous of MICHELLE CHONG.For the past 6 years,she had Mazda RX 8 and Nissan Fairlady Coupe.Now she has the Nissan Fairlady 350Z Roadster for her ride.Like how cool nak mampos is dat.I jealous teramat-amat okay.Especially the 350Z.Do u have any idea jambu dat car is?D other day i saw a 50+ year old Ahpek driving it.Mcm siakens.Ahpeks are supposed to have those Mercedes Kompressor or those BMW 5 Series,not the 350Z.Abang,i nak one! :)

Oh yes,if u think that u have a Lexus and think u r some kind of a big shot.Wake up lah brader oi.Ure juz buying for the brand lah.I wuld rather buy MarkX.Nyahahaha. :)

Ok dah :)

2008-10-31T23:38:00.000+08:00

I think i want a new blogskin.I am getting really bored with the whole all white idea.With school and work,out of the way now.Why not right? :)

2008-10-13T21:40:00.000+08:00

Meet Nabilah Amirah Safarudin.She was born on 10 October 2008 at 10pm sharp.And she will be love No.5.Up til today i still think that she has some kinda Japanese looking face.I haven't had the chance to meet her yet as i have been really busy with work and school.But i plan to meet her soon :) And abg and kakak iparku,please dun tell me u plan to have baby no.5.Ini maciam semua org boleh pengsan :)

2008-09-26T14:26:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered when is the time u will be settling down?Not that i have but i realised as time passes by,this kind of questions would just pop up out of no where.The other day when break fasting Mum was membebel-ing about my behaviour.She keeps saying 'Dulu aku umur kau,dah anak 1".And as usual i would answer, "Itu dulluuuu.Zaman police pakai seluar pendek" I can't even picture myself engaged much less married at this point of time.Perangai dah lah tak senonoh.Same mcm budak2 kat MMI aku teach everyday.And like what i have always been telling people, if i were to get married now, mampus rumah tangga aku tunggang terbalik :)

Oh yes,i love this picture.Not that it has any artistic angles or wateva u call it in photography.The only reason why i like this picture is because it was the 1st and the last wedding i attended with Mr Muhd Farhan.And other than that,it holds no other meaning.I was playing around with the lens and as u can see the picture has no specific focus langsung.Sorry ah,aku tak blajar deep2 into photography ah.Actually,i know nothing at all.Nyahahhaa :)

Raya is just a few days awayy and it seems like there is no preparations at all in this house except for the ugly yellow walls and the kuih2 raya that Mum bought.Sungguh menyedihkan.Maaf lah,saya dah tak excited sangat nak beraya.And this year will be the first with Mr Ash ;) And with Ramadhan leaving and Syawal coming,it only means one thing for me.Gaining back whatever weight that i lost.Nyahahahha :)

Sis-in law is due with Baby No 4 any time now.Sungguh the nervous and excited at the same time.The name have finally be changed.Confirm plus chop,no more changes(insyaallah),Nabila Amirah.Aku sukeeeee :)

If this is not love,then i don't know what it is.

2008-09-14T08:17:00.000+08:00

"When you are in town and not fasting,that is normal.But when you're fasting,you are considered abnormal."Sesungguhnyr,dunia ni dah gendeng sikit.Say i've got this friend who talks world wide web.Wen it comes to us not fasting,sumpah mcm forum perdana.Makes it seem as though she knows every bit about the religion.Saying dosa here and there lah.In the end,u're no different then us.Meet boyfren,hold here n dere.U claim u noe so much about the religion.But tkkan tak tau kan during fasting period,any contact with the other sex with no blood relations considered puasa dah batal?Unless unintentionally lah.So next time u wanna start ur forum perdana with me,get your facts right first :)

The hari raya spirit have not been felt yet.Maybe bcoz the baju raya is not ready yet.This year is a total change for me.Its more of a "You wear what you want,i wear what i want when we go out".Not your ordinary couple.And this way,we don't have to fight over what colour to have in common.Lagikk best.But then and again,this boy is vey well known for bailing out during Hari Raya outings.U dare bail out without giving me any proper explanation,i promise u i'll do something to either u or ur other gf.Tak bedek tauu :)

Thursday come faster can or not? :)

2008-09-05T21:03:00.002+08:00

When was the last time you smiled because you mean it?Just like this gundu niece of mine.In this picture i was using the DSLR and she was super excited therefore that explains the very wide smile on her face.She has this thing for cameras and taking photos.The only difference between this gundu and this auntie of hers is that she likes to be in the pictures while i prefer to be the one taking the picture.Oh yes,she is a FOX addict :)

I feel that sometimes in life,no wait.Almost all of the time i make decisons without thinking of it for the long term.I just go with what I feel at that point of time.In another words,i am not much of a thinker.I juz go with basic instincts.And most recently i had to face the concequences.Lets face it.I never though it would happen bcoz after all i was going to stop what i have been doing.And yes,i have always been regretting my actions,ryte from the start.I dunno how to come about it,to explain to u in detailed.I regret everything that i have done and if given the choice to turn back time,i would.Right from the beginning.Like what i have said before,i am staying on because its worth the fight;it have always been :)

Attachment have started for me and i'm really tired.It have only been the 1st week.The kids have been reali great plus annoying at times.I'm being attached to the N1 class.At class N1A,i'm Miss Ana and at my usual N1B,they simply call me teacher.Sumpah tak bedek all of them reali2 cute but as usual there r simply times when i juz wanna strangle dem.They keep me smiling and laughing with their behaviours.There was once an incident where i was just staring at blank space and went crying and one of the came up to me and said."Teacher,don't cry anymore lah.Not pretty oreadi.Teacher cry,we also sad.We make u smile okay?"A few of them stood up and began dancing and made stupid faces.Kids indeed do and say the darnest thing :)

"Farhan is your past,Ashraf is your present but none will be your future".And that sentence really shook me up,coming from a very good friend.But i beg to differ.You know what i want and i'll stick to it.They say when you have already made a decision,you stick by it.And i'll do just that.My mind is all set and there is no turning back from now onwards.I'll get through everything.Be it the good times or the bad ones.PROMISE :)

I love you and nothing can change that :)

2008-08-31T21:59:00.003+08:00

Lets just hope that we don't get drifted apart that much.

With the month Ramadhan here, there willl be no more the much anticipated Saturdays for us anymore.

How menyedihkan :(

On the other hand,i got myself my 19th birthday present.

The most expensive by far.

Babbbyyyy,i love you :)

2008-08-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

Its those little things you do and say that makes me smile.

With every beat of my heart, i love you.

2008-08-19T00:22:00.000+08:00

They say when one door closes,another one opens.

But i refuse to let this door shut.

Only because this time round, its worth the fight.

-shana

2008-08-04T03:12:00.000+08:00

As most of the people around me know,i am crazzzyyyy over three ASH in this whole wide world.I have this thing for guys with facial hair.Ok wait.Lets just narrow it down to the goatie.Sumpah tak bedek,i find most guys with goatie hot stuff.And of course my 3 Ash has it.

1.Mr Ashton Kutcher
2.Mr Ashri Zainal
3.Mr Muhd Ashraf :)

And when they are without their trademark facial hair,i can laugh until tergolek2.Its just an unfamiliar sight.Especially when Ashri had to serve the country and he had to shave his head bald and his goatie off.I laughed my heads off lah.For Mr Kutcher,its not that bad.With or without it,he still looks fine.And for my sunshine,its been a looooonnggg time since i last saw him without it.And i don't even intend to ask him to shave it off though i sometimes get irritated by it simply because u go figure yourself :)

Looking at my wishlist,i find it so phatetic.There are so many empty boxes and i think it will remain that way for a looong time.I just don't have the money ryte now to get watever i want and furthermore schooling at town is really burning a hole in my pocket.Sumpah tak bedek.I get broke at the end of every day.I only managed to save a small amount of money for July and now i'm cracking my head over this month's savings.Sungguh menyayat hati :(

You:What do u want for your nineteenth birthday?
Me:To be a girl.
You:Seriously?
Me:Noooooo.Do i look like i have any interest in changing?
You:Maybe its THAT time.
Me:Look,if this is about me being with Ash.Let me make it clear to u and i think i have make it clear to him too.If he wants a girly girl for a gf,he can go find another girl.And if he wants a skinny gf,he can do the same.I aint interested in changing any part of me.Both physically and character wise.
You:Why?
Me:Belum dapat petunjuk daripada ALLAH :)

Just one of those stupid conversation that bores me :)

ONE MORE MONTH!

2008-07-27T17:01:00.001+08:00

Its a Sunday and i am at home.Not that i am complaining about it but i m actually enjoying every bit of it.I have been going out so often that sometimes i treat this place like a hotel.I come back home just to have my rest,watch tv and eat.I havent been spending much time with Mum due to the school commitments.School is really draining me out.But i gotta hang on.The fee is a big bomb and as promised i'll get my diploma before turning 21 :)

Truth is,at times i feel really tired being in a relationship-especially this one.I have a nasty anger and i throw tantrums as and when i like.Irregardless of time and the situation.But i thank God that he has the kind of patience that is needed to deal with me.Things havent been really perfect for the past few weeks but what the hell.Every relationship has its own ups and downs.So long as we keep the faith going,everything will be fine :)

I love my boyfriend:)

Because tonight would be the night i would fall for you over again-and so he sang :)

2008-07-26T03:40:00.003+08:00

FRIDAY!

2008-07-20T23:47:00.011+08:00

I am in a happy alam mode.Mainly bcoz i got good grades for the 1st exam even though i didnt actually study.My definition of studying is sit in front of the tv with a set of notes and try to remember the facts while watching itI went into the classroom with 1 thought in my head-sure fail.After reading the case studies,i was telling myself to get prepared to be hang tomorrow by Mdm Zaharah.I used mainly logic to answer them rather than textbook based answers.Apr aku merepek pon aku tak tau.But thank God i passed with a high credit :)

The other day i was on myspace looking at this particular hamba Allah's profile.Sesungguhnyr,i don't really like the person.Then my darling 'boyfren' came up n lay beside me n said :U,saper ni?"Told her"Ash's ex girlfriend".Then she replied with a long2 eeeeeeeeee and said "U lagi lawa".I looked at her n smiled.Tapi btol lah,pompuan tu memang tak lawa pon.Nyahahha.Sesungguhnyr,i can't be bothered to put you name down,please leave my Mr Muhd Ashraf alone bcoz he is no longer yours.For goodness sake,ure twenty one.ACT LIKE YOUR AGE NOT YOUR SHOE SIZE :)

So,somebody have gotten me all excited about passing the TP.Just the thought of the Red Mazda 3 is enough to make me happy alam.And sesungguhnyr,i am dead jealous of ur Dad's WRX Sti.Thats like one of my top 5 cars lahh.Gendeng btol.Lets juz pray hard that i'll pass coz i reali don't have the confidence that i'll pass.Confirm more that 20 points.Dah lah half clutch tak senonoh.See fana,shuld have taken automatic kann.But don't want lah.Automatic transmission are for BORING people :)

Sunshine,can i please have my Ferrari jacket?No wait.The Ripcurl also can.Or no,wait.I want the same G Shock watch as urs.Ok,fickle nak mampos :)

So Mr Friday,where have you been?

2008-07-18T20:11:00.001+08:00

Nobody said relationships would be easy.
Come on now,pick yourself up.
:)

2008-07-13T21:31:00.001+08:00

The more I learn,the more I love
:)

2008-07-09T20:05:00.003+08:00

School have been awesome mainly bcoz of the friends.But but but the stress is kicking in oreadi.I've got my 1st exam next Wednesday.Cepat gilerr oiii.And soon after i have to hand in my assignment which i have not even started on.Mainly,its about Child Development.Susah tau.Nak try? :)

Life in general have been great.Sunshine have been sooo good to me.Fetching me from school at least once a week.Sometimes we would meet up randomly just to lepak n den all the merepek-ing will start.Its a wonder how i used to be not able to talk to him.But now i can talk to him about everything and anything.He would even answer my stupidest questions.Now that everybody knows that we are together i can suke hati do what i want.No more hiding and no more denying.Lying is not a good thing tauu.And don't ask me when we got together.Bcoz not even us noe when.Kite anyhow rembat.And we find the idea of celebrating monthsary stooopid.Celebrate love evryday not just on a specific day.Nak celebrate baru nak belikan gift.No celebrations,no gifts.Mereps :)

The Hp is giving me a whole load of problems and its high time to change to a new one.But i gotta wait til next month to do so.Bingit nak mamposs.And to make things worst i reali dunno what phone i should change to.I want the N81 but hearing the reviews mcm menakotkan.Maybe i shuldnt get the 8GB lahh.And Mr boyfriend is gonna change his phone too.And the sweet ass wants to do it together.Hahahaa :)

ILY :)

2008-06-29T14:52:00.001+08:00

First week of school have been a blast though studies are kicking in a whole lot faster than i thought.My classmates come from all walks of life.I've got mothers in their early 20s,a fire fighter,someone from Bangladesh and etc.My lecturer kicks ass i tell you.She is in her 40s but she is full of energy.Always making the class interesting though the module i'm going thru is very2 dry.With all the definitions and theories.Who says being a pre-school teacher is an easy job?Its not all about ABC and Twinkle2 Little Stars okay.. :)

On Friday i went out with the 2 idiots which went great minus the leg cramps and beg aku berat moments.The two idiots fetched me from school and we proceeded to Image to get the boy his shirt.Nice lah biol.Went to Bencoolen straight away after that where we pratically went crazy just looking at the watches.I'm a BIG fan of watches i tell u.Me and the boy got ourselves a pair of G Shock each.Then,as i was really craving for Tong Seng,they went with my idea and had dinner there.But it was a dissapointment for me.No elaboration needed.Walked to Esplanade to meet the boyfren and his fren.And it felt mcm aku tengok triplets.All 3 of a different age.Kan Azura kan? :)

Saturday is the day i'll meet the boyfren withough fail.And as always we gambled our way to the destination.Left the bike at Bugis and walked our way to the place.Sumpah tak bedek the weather damn hot.We were pespiring like baru habes lari 200m dash.After getting what he wanted we proceeded to Marina Square where we met Cik Nana and Uncle ____.Had lunch at Food Loft and parted ways after that.Stayed to watch the air show and the fireworks.It wasnt that exciting anymore because we've watched it last week.I learnt a thing or two from the boyfriend about photography.He is so into it i tell u but i've lost interest in it.For fun can lah.Muhd Ashraf,be prepared for next week okay.Confem plus shop fana kene marah but tak kesah.I'm not scared of you. :)

Oh yes.Let me share with you something i learnt in school.Do you know that a healthy man realeases 300 million sperms during ejaculation?But only 2000 survive to meet the egg.And out of that 2000,only 1 sperm will be lucky enough to penetrate into the egg.Cool kan?Nyahahhaha. :)

2008-06-22T13:54:00.007+08:00

KL trip was okay.But the trip to Berjaya Time Square was a blast.I went up the roller coaster thrice and i wanted to go for more but nobody wanted to accompany me.Not much shopping was done because simply put i didnt noe wat to buy.But i got one thing that got me happy alam.My 7th pair of watch,the 3rd Casio.Tamak sungguuh aku ini.I cant wait for the next trip.But Ain,this time no Shahril please.Boleh giler aku melayan dier :)

The past two days was spent with mynumberonefavouriteboy.Friday to watch Get Smart which was quite awesome lah.And Saturday just to jalan2 carik pasal sesame sendiri.So yesterday the bike decided to break down and that resulted in us being stranded at Shell for a good two hours.Mcm nak cry adr,nak ketawe pon have.Then i told him "U should be thankful that u dont have a girly girl girlfriend.Tkde matair yang sanggup tunggu tau.Kalau lain pompuan dah lame ckp bye2,i balik dulu,motor dah boleh start den baru call me eh."And he bursted out laughing.Last resort we called his cousin up who came a lot longer den expected and questions about us were raised.Sungguh telah diexpectedkan.Oh yes sunshine,i dont mind if u look like Mamat in the years to come.Hot jugak pe.Nyahahahhaa. :)

Tomorrow is the day Nur farhana masok skolah balik.After 3 months of dudok rumah shake2 leg.I reali2 don't feel like going school lah.But what to do kan.And fana nanti lame2 naik boring ngn town because dier skolah kat sane.Hahahhaa. :)

Me:Eh,at KL ryte i ate a lot lah.

Him:No wonder tadi i bwk motor like heavy.

Yes,perangai kamu mcm siakes.But its okay.Bcoz sometimes i oso a bit siakens.Aniways thanks for the top from Billboard ya.Sesungguhnyr,sudah lame i wanna get a top from that shop.Tetapi mcm everytym adr duit,always forget.So, Mr Ash can i have more?Nyahahahha.ILY :)

2008-06-16T13:33:00.001+08:00

Pit on Thursday was okay i guess.The atmosphere felt very different,i dunno why.The boyfren picked me up an hour late tanks to Miss Nurain Bte Kassim.Sumpah tak bedek the weather cukup panas.Not everybody was present but okay can lah.Something happened and it reali dampened my mood very2 much.Maciam nak jer amik helmet buang kat kepale dier.But i put it all aside and managed to get thru it til the next day. So,i was the only girl who overnighted there and being surrounded by all the guys,it makes me felt though i was with the LP boys.I miss them.Very2 much.I seriously felt like sleeping on the way back.Especially with the very strong wind blowing.But the thought of nanti fana jatoh tergolek2 kat tengah2 AYE mcm tk senonoh lah pulak kept me awake.And when i reached home Mum was reali pissed at me as i didnt come home and to make matters much worst i was carrying the helmet.I decided to ignore wateva her membebel is,lock the door and went to sleep..Aku tau,kurang ajar punye anak.Nyahahahhaha. :)

So,yesterday i was out with the 1st sister and she treated me to two movies.Nevemind that i've watched Kungfu Panda before.Its just so very awesome lahh.The second movie was The Incredible Hullk at Gold Class babybeh.Punye lah awesome nak mampos.We had Coffee Bean before going home.Overall i think the weekend was awesome minus the part that i had to ditch p.O.g's outing because i had to take care of the 3 hamlaus.Oh aniways,the 4th one is a girl.And and and i reali2 don't like the name that is gonna be given;Natasha Amirah.I reali2 don't like the idea of calling the baby tasha.I have this thing for the name tasha.Ni sume Ashraf punye pasal ah! :(

I'm leaving for KL tomorrow and sesungguhnyr,i reali cant wait for it but at the same time i have this voice at the back at my head that keep telling me don't go.Ask the boyfren why.I was debating with him the entire of last night.And Mr Ashraf i wanna kill u now because you're getting the PS3.Today summore eh,tak fair betol lah.Jangan buat perangai eh.. :)

2008-06-05T15:58:00.004+08:00

Looking at the situation back then,i reali didnt have a choice.That is why i went to an extent of lying and it went for months.But after much thinking,i decided to take in the plunge and go for it.I don't really care what your perception is.I get a lot of negative remarks,i get stared at and all those things but glad to say,i am getting used to it. :)

Pit is exactly one week awayyy and i can't wait for it but i am worried at the same time.The reason i am worrying so much is that this time evrything is done by the boys.And trust me my boys don't have initiative langsung.So,i pray reali hard that evrything will go well on the day.And somebody have promised me something.So u better keep your words.You don't wanna see your NOVA floating in the open sea do u?And and and sunshine,i think i wanna go with you because fana dah have the kemalasan nak go public.Nyahahhaha. :)

Sister got herself my all time favourite Arai Ram III a few days ago and sumpah tak bedek aku jealous tak terhingga.One of those can buy me 11 of my Evo II.Do your maths.Sunshine,i want one too.Maybe not now lah because to get it now wuld be sungguh tak practical langsung.But but but for a start,i wanna get the helmet bag.Myself,please :)

Sorry, but i can never be that girl.

2008-05-25T22:45:00.000+08:00

I'll be waiting

Mr Friday,i have to admit that you look awesomely good.I was beyond happy alam when we met.I couldnt stop smiling and i donno why but i was feeling quite akward being wif u.Padahal,kawan dah long2 tau.So,when can i meet you again?Nyahahahhaha. :)

Everything is finally settled for June and i'm very much glad that everybody agreed and can make it to the pit.This time,aku and Ain lepas tangan oi.Pandai2 lah korang kanak2 lelaki manage the whole ting.I wanna see how well the guys can handle this whole thing.I'll lend a helping hand wenever i feel like to eyh.And Nurain anak Kassim,i cant wait for our trip to KL.We'll shop til we drop okayh?I have like a lot of things in mind.Kuala Lumpur,here we come! :)

Yesterday's trip out with my prettyboy went quite smooth except for the times we met the ex-school mates and made the whole encounter very akward.I prefer to keep my silence and let him do the talking.Funny gituk kan,fana diam.But i truly did enjoy yesterday though most of d tyms we were walking arnd aimlessly and ended up bebual mereps.So Brother Ash,can i please have that Ferrari jacket for my 19th?Nyahahhaha.Like that would ever happen eh.Jangan dilayan sangat perangai fana part mintak2. :)

Being there in your arms,make me feel complete again.

2008-05-22T22:29:00.001+08:00

The stooopppiiiddd gundu who missed his penalty kick and made my heart skipped a beat and for once i really2 thought that Manchester United would loose.But they WON aniways.By the end of the 2nd half,i was quite dead and wanted to swith off the tv and go off to lala land.The only reason i stayed up is because i wanna have my last laugh at those gundus that confidently told me that Man U would not win.Gendeng lah lu people.But victory was ours lahh.So after the match before heading to lala land i went to text the all time favourite 'Aku nak malukan kau' people.The brother,Mr Hafiz Jabbar and Muhd Ashraf.Padan muker korang ah!MANCHESTER UNITED WON BOTH EPL AND CHAMPION'S LEAGUE :)

Now that i have booked the TP date,i can feel the pressure.Irritating oi.It looks like evrybody is much more excited den i am.Why?Because Hari Raya outings,nanti fana boleh drive.Jangan diharap sangat kalau part tu.Nyahahhaha.But i reali hope i can pass before raya and also it would make a perfect belated 19th birthday present.But before that i have gotta improve on a lot of parts.Praying very hard eyh :)

Oh yes,Ain.Tankiew for staying up and accompanying me for the whole of 1st half.Wait for July hokayy.Because i've got this huge thing for u if he agrees to it.Nyahahhaa.And ingat tau,everytym sakit hati,ingat Matin.*kening naik-naik :)

sebablakiakulagihotdarithearth'score

2008-05-18T20:01:00.000+08:00

Why oh why does both of your birthday have to fall on July?Sungguh tak gerek langsung tauu.I think I have something in mind on what to buy for the NL but now i have to wreck my brains for mynumberonepriority's gift.I know July is 2 months away but money is the main priority now.I'm gonna go bankrupt preeetty soooooon.Tanx to u lah love! :)

I got my 6th watch a few days ago.And finally its a Levi's.I think the watch is super duper ugly but i juz can't resist it lahh.Just the idea of a new watch makes me smile.Now i gotta wait another 3 months before i can get another watch.Its August baybeh and i can get wateva i want for that particular day.So Daddy,get ready your Masters. :)

I think its d time i say goodbye to the ever so loyal Eastpak and its high time i get myself dat jambu nak mampus Crumpler.I want that stricking red one and that will cost me a bomb.Lets juz face it lah,Eastpak and Jansport is becoming an over-rated brand.And i don't wanna be one of those kids who carry those brands because they think that its super duper cool and its the 'in' thing.Bleargh.Sungguh mengecewakan.Aniways,does anybody have any idea where to get the Crumpler sticker for helmets?And don't come to me and say buy at Crumpler shops because the stickers they sell are not for helmets.And please rule out prodesign. :)

2 more days and u don't even realise it.What a let down. :(

2008-05-13T13:40:00.002+08:00

Looking at how things have been going for the past few weeks,i doubt i can hang on.I can't even confide in you anymore.In another words,i feel like giving up.You have not been around much lately and trust me its making a huge impact.Now i feel like evrything is a huge mistake.I never thought i would use this on us but i wish i could turn back time.

On a lighter note,i got my fair dosage of happiness on Saturday thanks to my two kalau boleh aku tknk depent sangat kat korang frens and of course the other significant one.As promised,we went to catch What Happens In Vegas.For the whole 90 minutes,fana happy alam.Only because she find Mr Kutcher exceptionally hot.I have this thing for Mr Kutcher lah.I find it funny how i so wanna admit to the significant one how much i think he kinda resembles Mr Kutcher but i didnt wanna do it because nanti egonyr naik tinggi2.Haahaa.The night didnt end well but i am glad to have spent it with three of the good friends :)

Sunday was spent with Sister and i went to watch Made of Honour which was as awesome as What Happens In Vegas.I swear Patrick Dempsey is effing hot.Nyahahha.We went shopping after dat and i got my first Island Shop apparel.It cost her a bomb.But nice punye pasal lah kan.grab jer lah.So,can i have more now? :)

There is this article on 8 days about can a guy and a girl be just friends.To me,the answer would be yes if you expect nothing from the other friend.And while reading,i laughed because it reminded me of Mr Friday.We have a very interesting history lah.Much much more interesting than your past relationships compiled together.Kan Friday kan? :)

My dear muchlove,i swear you're an interesting soul.You never fail to amaze me with your child like character.If being ugly makes me get what i want den i am happy being ugly.Whats the point of being pretty when you have a stinking attitude?Yes,he has a bike.And FYI,i don't ride with him.Its his not ours.And if i wanted a guy with a bike,dah lame lah eh aku carik mat motor lain.Stop bitching arnd here and go get ur own bf. :)

God, please make me better.

2008-05-12T22:01:00.000+08:00

Confusion sets in.

Not uncertainty about you or me,

but you and me.

So i gently place my heads in my hands.

And i think

I reflect on all that has happened

Over the months

And a single tear streaks down my skin

My heart is beating so fast

And i don't know how to stop it

Please stop.

Just stop all together.

Take me from here so I can be with you again.

Even though I was never really with you

In the first place

This confusion has taken over my body

My mind.

My soul.

Everything.

Wipe that tear from my cheek

And be you once again.

Stare into my eyes

And begin to comfort me

As i reassure

Reassure your brilliance

Intelligence

And bravery

While it reassures you my confusion

On all these damn thoughts

2008-05-09T15:47:00.003+08:00

I tried to be artistic lah.I think i did well?Nyahahha.Royston Tan once said you don't need good equipment to take great pictures.You have to understand the surrounding and work with it.Something like that.I cant remember what he said exactly lah.Who is this Royston Tan?Do the research yourself.I am not that over the top crazy about photography but its juz something i like to do.And the thought of a DSLR still makes me happy alam.I don't plan to get one in the nearest time.As off today,i'm putting a stop to buying things that are not neccessarily needed.I think the camera is one of them.But die die by Mr Abg Syak's wedding or Ms Senggol-Senggolan's engagement,i'm gonna get it,without the parent's help.PROMISE. :)

I had my FTT yesterday and i passed.Happy alam beb.The TP instructor was suprised that i actualli ended the test in 10 minutes.He said to me "Girls usually take up all of the time given.But you,early2 leave oreadi ah".Wats d point of sitting in the room and tensed urself up when ure quite sure of ur answers.So,puas hati aku juz end the test.Naseb baek pass.And now TP.Itu lagi kecoh.Aku belom book lagik.The earliest date is 15 Aug,which is 3 months away.And i still got a lot of pracs left.I dun like to rush things.How how how?Evrybody is expecting me to pass before raya.Makk,tolong! :)

Eh muchlove,aku suke sangat2 layan orang mcm kau.Very2 fun.Perangai mcm budak2 btol lah.Tak wasted aku masok pre-school teaching.Mari sini read properly what i'm gonna write.Firstly,stop being a biatch here.Yes,aku admit aku not good looking.So?How now?Nak send aku kat exile island?Kau jealous kan sebab kau jambu den bf kau not as good looking as my Ashraf?Alah.Admit jer lah.U have a lously,lame ass attitude.No wonder the hot ones don't go for u.Secondly,i admit that i'm not over the past.Abeh?How now?Report kat PM LEE ah.It takes time u less clever woman.And the two doesnt refer to my past.I dun think i nid to say who it is.Thirdly,as mentioned before,i am neither denying nor admitting to a relationship with Ashraf.Fourth,Mr Friday is my best friend.Yes,i have a boy for my best friend.Y now?U dun have ah?How now?Go art friend find.Insyaallah dpt.Nyahahaha.Keep the tags coming. :)

I have a movie date tomorrow and i so so cant wait for it.Please be prepared to be ignored for 90 minutes baby.ILY :)

2008-05-05T13:38:00.000+08:00

Mummy!!I nak kahwin ngn Muhd Ashri anak Zainal.Boleh?Nyahahha.The whole family is very used to my whole obessed nak mampos perangai with this hotstuff here.The niece have also joined in the club.She will devotedly sit in fron to the tv every Sunday from 3-4pm to watch her auntie's boyfren.And when she comes over in the evening she will scream at me and ask wether i watched Danielle.She calls him Uncle Ashri.Then she will say "Tadi uncle Ashri hensem eyh".Of course lah.Bkn tadi jek.Hari2 dier hensem.Hahaaa.Niece is that gila over Mr Ashri that he have been mistaking Ashraf for the real deal.No matter how many times i correct her n say its Uncle Ashraf not Uncle Ashri,she will ignore and still call him Uncle Ashri. One day i bring u go see this 'Uncle Ashri' den you see how world apart they are. :)

Mr Friday,i dunno why but you always come at the correct time.And i was very happy alam when you called me up and we talked til my phone battery went dead.Despite all the shit that we have been giving each other you know i still love you.And i miss you more then your girlfriend would.Nyahahha.Dah 6 months tau aku tak jume kau!Nak complete 1 year eyh?Lets go to Vivo,have the huge fight and i'll cry my hearts out in front of u and swear that i'll never talk to u for the rest of my life ting.Amaciam?Mau?I find it weird how i say i hate you and say how much u make me feel miserable but at the end of the day i turn to u for comfort. :)

One last thing,muchlove.U want his number eyh?Not giving.There is this popular network called myspace and friendster,go find him urself.Selamat mencari. :)

And i cant wait for what happens in vegas :)

2008-05-03T21:07:00.000+08:00

My dear muchlove,its true dat evryone is entitled to their own opinion,I agree on that.But ur opinion is not needed.Who r u to decide when my relationship is gonna be over.Who are u?Fortune teller?And true,my Mr Muhd Ashraf is one fine looking guy.And what does he see in me?That you gotta ask him urself.And to u maybe he deserves someone better.He deserves someone better looking,better in character and better in every way.But from what i see how things are going,he is happy with the way i am.And we believe that so long as we're content with each other,that is all that matters.I don't care about what you have to say.Your words don't pull me down.I reali dunno what i owe u til u have to fill my tagboard with those things.Is jealously the main reason?Do u want my Ashraf?Go have a try.If you win.you can have him.But let me tell you something,you don't even stand a chance.If you have enough guts come and approach us if ever u see us together on the road.But nvm lah eh.Lets jus forgo d idea.U dun even dare to use ur real name.Continue tagging if u want to.I wont erase it off.Say what you want,its a free world.So,much love suke hati kau lah!And bout d bomoh ting.Aku tak pakai bomoh.I asked for Harry Potter's help to cast a spell. :)

I am neither admitting nor denying that he is my boyfriend.

2008-04-29T18:03:00.000+08:00

Current Song:Don't Speak by No Doubt

Today marks the birth of my new baby.With the help of the mother,i got my Nintendo DS Lite;in black.Happy alam beb.But there are tonnes of things missing.So,i cant quite yet have the pleasure of playing it.And looking at the rate of how i have been spending my money,evrything that needs to be done have to be put on hold.The money in my bank accnt is depleting faster than the ozone layer.And to top it off i have got dis enormous plan for July.So,how now? :)

Relationships can be such a bitch.Especially if you are at the loosing end.You have to wait and wait for the other party's decisionwith each passing day seems like a thousand year.And at the end of the day what do u get?A phatetic i dunno.Bastard nak mampos.But but but.I thank god i am not in such a situation.Alhamdulilah. :)

When you were still a child and don't exactly care about what the blardy hell love gotta offer,your MOTHER was you everything.In your eyes,there is no other person in this whole wide world that can replace her.Her love keeps u motivated,it keeps u smiling everyday.But when puberty steps in,the mother is being ignored.Bit by bit.And suddenly the opposite sex becomes much more important.What he/she thinks of you.And slowly u change into a different person.The kind that the other party will favour.And when the other party starts to say those three words;i love you,he/she suddenly becomes your everything.And what happens to the mother?Ignored.You start telling your mum lies.Starting from the i'm going out to study(when you're actually meeting your gf/bf) to shoo-ing ur mum out of the room when you're talking on the phone and so on.

And i was one of those idiots.I pratically didnt care what my mum said.My boyfriend was my everything.What he said matters the most.A no means no.Whereas when my mum says no,its a heck care situation.But things are different now,after the mother got hospitalised and after the end of the 3 year relationship.They say mother knows best.TRUE.This time,i am following what she told me to do 2 years back.And she is preety happy with how things are going ryte now.She noes who i am going out with;no objections watsoever.Alhamdulilah. :)

Aniways,if you are reading this which i doubt u are.Iskandar Shah Bin Ismail,i miss you.Banyak2 loh.The first ever guy i call my nsman.Nyahahaha. :)

2008-04-25T16:15:00.002+08:00

I wanna scream,jump and do whatever.

Why?

Because tomorrow is SATURDAY.

And i get to meet the :).

Let us pray hard that tomorrow will be fine.

I just have this stupid feeling.

Bleargh...

2008-04-21T20:37:00.001+08:00

I wanna grow old with you

Sister is finally going to get engaged,insyaallaah,by the end of this year.Happy alam beb.Lyk finally,she has a confirmed boyfriend.Instead of the usual 'Matair kau yang mane satu?'.Nyahahha.Lets juz wait and see :)

A friend asked me, "How is your next boyfriend gonna be like?".The answer is simple.My next bf will be my best friend.Its kinda lyk a no strings attached relationship thing.I dun wanna be attached to someone and be restricted to do what i want.And whoever he is he have to:

1.Understand that i speak whatever that i have in my mind.
If i feel like swearing,i will.If i feel like being sarcastic,you're just oh so dead.
2.Understand that i am not a fan of dressing up and whatever you call make up.
80% of the time,i am in t-shirt, jeans and no make up whatsoever.So,dun expect me to wear fancy2 clothes or smear my face with make up.
3.Know that i don't read CLEO or anything of that sort.I prefer my automobiles.
Yes,i prefer to educate myself more on engines,suspensions,blablabla den to educate myself on the latest trends and what nots.
4.Understand that things go my way and rarely yours.
I don't usually give in and things go my way wether you like it or not.And when i do give in,which is very rare you better pray hard dat i dun change my mind.
5.Know that i am fickle,at times.
One moment i will say,i'll meet you and the other moment i can say that i'm very lazy and i don't want to see your face.

I have my fair share of bad habits and the list goes on.But this are my top 5.Maybe,just maybe i have found him.But but but.The story has its own suspense. :)

And you.Stop beating red lights.You're scaring me. :)

2008-04-17T15:13:00.000+08:00

Maybe someday,we will end up somewhere.

Yesterday's trip to town with Mr An was awesome lah.I swear it feels as if we haven't been meeting for years.Padahal,baru 1 mnth.And the shirt you bought is so porny lah.Nyahaha.Dun you ever wear dat shirt if ever we go out again.I'll salai you hidup2 and barbeque you at Han's river.Amaciam?Ok go?Oh yes,you still owe ma a meal at SG.I'm sooo looking forward to that :)

Mum caught me looking at cars a few days ago and said "Kau ni,lelaki ke perempuan?Tak tengok kereta,dier tengok motor".I decided not to answer and juz kept my silence.Only god noes what will happen lah if i answer her back.Negotiating with the parents over the bike license have been giving me back the same answer.Its still a flat NO.Adult fare is killing me.And haven they realise that this daughter of theirs will be schooling at town.By the end of the month,aku boleh bakrupt with the bus/MRT fares.Seriously,i have done my maths.Having own transportation,saves money a whole lot more.Jadi rider of own bike salah.Jadi pillion of org lain nyr bike lagi salah.How eh?? :)

The other day i got bored and decided to go Myspace-ing.Using my dear darling gf's accnt,as usual.And i stumbled upon this guy's accnt.He is a farhan's friend.So apr lagi,aku main kpo2 lah.Sumpah tak bedek,his voice damn nice.Boleh go alalalaallaa.And if my bf were to have his kinda voice,hari2 aku suruh lullaby kan.And farhan,are you sure on the cenderawasih tingy?I am still not confident lah.Hari2 aku dengar and i still cannot believe that you're the one singing not Aidil.Nyahahhaha. :)

Saturday.Saturday.Saturday.I can't wait for you to come.IMY. :)

2008-04-09T15:45:00.003+08:00

And i'm glad to have you as my once upon a time

I am officially B-R-O-K-E.Ni sume korang nyr pasal ah.See what happens when you bring me out.Thanks lah eh.Abeh bag Le Coq Sportif tu aku blom angkat lagi.Abeh how sey?The past 2 days was spent with my dear S.g.P.Monday to go private schools and its decided that i'm going MMI.Confirm lah oi.Kan aku dah ckp i'll end up there.Evrybody refuse to believe.Sedih.And Tuesday was shopping day.I was supposedly there just to follow them around but the temptation,gua tak leh angkat oi.I ended up spending all the money at SurferGirl,DC Superhero and Cotton On.And i love my matching smashing top.Hahaha. :)

Never ever ever order customised stickers from ProDesign.They take 2 blardy days just to complete a pathetic 4 inch sticker.Like ohmigosh lah.I believe it takes less that 1 HR for the printing process.Sebab aku dah desparate sngt,dats y i ordered from them.But nvm,i'm collecting them tmrw.This will be the first and last time.Sorry ProDesign,kamu udah ku blacklistedkan. :)

Oh yes.Aku proud giler and happy alam that i am from an Indonesian descent.Next tym if aku bebual dlm Indo accent,aku adr rights oi.So,korang2 yang anyhow menembak,nak check family tree aku tak?Hurhur. :)

For now,i am gonna start working,save enough money and buy myself my own ride.And i'll be a selfish ass and not tumpang anybody.Nyahahha.I'm gonna have a Red Mitsubishi Colt Plus or Honda Fit with Mugen Bodykit.Aku nak go lawan Abg aku nyr Civic.Mengada2 nak mampos itu orang tua. :)

I need Mr Boyfriend :)

2008-03-30T14:57:00.000+08:00

And nobody needs to know what goes on between us.

P.o.G's pit was a blast.Minus the few hours that was spent under the hot sun.And that resulted in me being very2 gelap.Fana jadi jantan on dat day.Everybody was present;First tym beb full force.Hurhur.And tankiew lah eh for pushing me into the water.Seronok habes lah.The drinking game was such a pain in the ass and everybody became merlion.I dun ever wish to play dat game again.Nevertheless, I had fun and u people kick ass! :)

Baby Number 4 is due on October.Yes lah.I'm gonna be a proud auntie once again.Sis in law is 3 mnths pregnant.Kecoh nak mampos i tell you.And this tym we're realli sure dat its a son/nephew/grandson.And his name would be Nabil Amir.I still dun get the idea of Nabil.Y must it be Nabil?Kecoh pe.Brother,there goes ur end of the year project for your car.Save up for the baby lah.Hahahaa.And kereta kau jgn nak step Type R eh. :)

I am quitting the Nicotine.I am not gonna smoke anymore.Very the menyayat hati dat i'm actuali quitting but i have already made a promise.But its for my own good at the end of the day.So,goodbye nicotine :)

I love you :)

2008-03-24T20:30:00.000+08:00

Current song:Jaded by Aerosmith

I dunno where i heard this song at on Saturday but it definitely made me stuck to it again.So,it rained on the day i decided to go shop.And it dampened my mood so so much dat i only got myself Ripcurl flip flops.I swear i had a million things to buy on my mind.But the mood was simply not dere.And dat resulted in us heading home at 6.Kesian kan.Dah mcm adr curfew.And dat day i found myself whining to Sunshine on how much i want the Adidas watch.Yes lah.Aku tetap nak itu jam lah.Toooo bad lah.I need a 2nd shopping trip.Sesiapa ingin mengvolunteer diri to be dragged arnd?Nyahahha. :)

I had my practical just now and it suck balls.I was doing right turning.No doubt it was much more easier den left turn but idk y i suck so much at it.But the instructor was super duper friendly and for the 1st time i was talking a lot while driving.I drove at Jurong area and its damn stressful to drive along this stretch of road.I was stuck at almost every red light.Mcm siakens betol.And aku drive pulang ke rumah!Nyahahha.I managed to psycho d instructor in letting me drive home.I was beyond happy alam lah. :)

So, i am abandoning the idea of a bike license for now.I dun have enough guts to go against the parents for this one.I wuld rather wait for the parents' consent.Wat if i jatuh tergolek-golek tengah2 circuit and balik with bruises here n dere.Apa mau jawab?Mati aku kene sembelih.On a lighter note,i need stickers for the white baby.But i simply cant decide what to put on it.Apr eh?decide kan aku ah. :)

You're not my boyfriend but something more :)

2008-03-18T21:02:00.001+08:00

MUMMY!I want a Red VW Golf GTI for my 19th birthday.Can i?Please?This car is my dream car.Engine nyr power lah oi.Boleh aku main zoom sana sini.The stock bodykit itself is very jambu oreadi.So Mum,can u spare me $120k?Nyahahah.Iye lah tuuu. :)

This mat-mat motor living at my area is seriously bothering the shit out of me.Aper kau pikir carpark aku ni Sepang circuit pe?Mcm seronok gitu kan dtg at 1 am and go perah saner sini.Mr SP and Mr TZM please have some brains and dun invite your frens over to the carpark after 12.Its very irriating.Sekali dtg,sume motor bising.But despite all the bising-ness,you gave me a chance to wash my eyes.Nyahahha. :)

Mr tzm was downstairs with his friends last night and he tegur-ed me.Aku ingatkan hot stuff maner lah duduk bawah block ngn geng motor."Kak fana baru balik keje eh?"I turned,said hello den said no.Den he looked at me and said "Alamak,dier bawak helmet.Melepas aku.So,yang KR tadi keluar tu kau eh?".I looked at him and smiled.Dah tau,step bodoh pulak. :)

Things have not been going quite well lately but i am glad its picking up slowly.And thank you for yesterday.It was much needed.Saya sayang kamu :)

Because you're the sun in my universe.

2008-03-14T15:54:00.002+08:00

Current Song: Sweet Child Of Mine by Guns n Roses

Once i get the money,i am gonna head down to Animal and buy the flip-flops.I dun care wat mum is gonna say.At least i m not using her money.So,yes i am addicted from stuffs from Animal.Its a surf brand from UK.Its been arnd for quite a while but they only made their break through recently.Previously its sold only at Skinny Puppy.One of the shops i was frequent at.Compared to other major surf brands like Roxy and such,Animal's collection are quite small.But they sell great stuffs.But aku confirm ngn kau,Animal is gonna be over rated soon.Just like Rusty.And then Fana will go find surf brand yang belom over rated and buy stuffs from that brand.Seronok pe pakai barang2 yang tak over rated.Be different and dun follow the crowd.But kan,Skinny Puppy pon skrg dah over rated.So Daddy,when can i have my cash in? :)

In times like this,she needs you.She needs you to calm her nerves.So,everytym she brings up the matter can you please stop changing the subject.I know you're tired and all after work and such.But please bear a thought for her.Only god knows what have been running through her mind the entire time you were out at work.Only god knows how insecure she is feeling.I think its high time,the past is being brought up.You know her past but she doesnt know about yours.And the only question she have is,who is that girl to you.Your attention is much needed. :)

Mummy,i want to marry Addy Cradle.Boleh?Dier hawt lah oi even though he is like old.You want me to have a boyfriend ryte?Go carik someone that either resembles the one on the left or right.But the right is the dream man.Nurul nak kahwin ngn Mat Rock!Amaciam?Boleh pe?Nyahahha. :)

I have my own rockstar

2008-03-13T13:55:00.005+08:00

Friday,i'll miss you.

2008-03-09T20:28:00.001+08:00

Current Song:Maybe by Secondhand Serenade

2 more days to the last paper.Whoa.Time flies like reali fast.And i have barely study lurh.Wen i learn something new,what i have learn before that will be lost.Mcm maner mau pass ini maciam?Mampos kau fana.Nyahahha. :)

Yesterday's trip out with Mr Sunshine was filled with if only he is my boyfriend thoughts.Nyahahha.The plan to study at National Library was ditched as it was overcrowded.And so we made our way to Fort Canning Park.Romantic habes blajar kat saner.Who wuld ever thought it wuld be a nice place to study eyh.Dragged him to MS after dat as i wanted to look at MP3 prices.Nak pegi IT fair,tk dpt lah eh.Ash syg,buy for me can?You know what i want.And I know you're very much bingit oreadi hearing me want this and that.But i want lah!Why i want a new watch is the same why you need a new tail light.Ada paham? :)

Havaianas aku kener kebas lah oi.Mcm siakens betol.I was just telling my mum dat she doesnt need to buy me a shoe.Coz i want a new Havaianas.Abeh last2 kene angkat.So,selamat ah tu $200.I am buying a new watch and 2 havaianas. :)

So,the burning question."Kau keluar2 ngn Ashraf,naik motor pe?".SALAH.We take public transport.Yes,the KR is being left at home.With him having a bike,doesnt mean its a MUST that we take the bike when we go out.And aku still belom naik motor dier hokay.Aku tak tergila-gila sngt nak naik motor lah oi! :)

Vocalist of 30 Seconds To Mars hot lah oi! :)

I'll be there for you

2008-03-05T14:04:00.000+08:00

Mr Sunshine was kind enough to drop by and lepak with me yesterday.And that is the number one enemy.Picture was taken without permission from the owner of course.I didnt wanna get the picture of the whole bike bcoz he was at the front part of the bike.Nyahahah.Skrg dier dah jambu lah kan.And i soooo like it dis way.So,he asked me "How u noe i dah sampai?" And i replied because your motor blardy bising,dats how.Ok,actuali no.Urs is the only KR dat comes in and out of this carpark.The other 2 bising ones are the SP and TZM.I noe how diffrentiate the sound lah okay.And my stand will stay the same.If i ever see you doing whatever u told me yesterday,i will take the NOVA and whacked your head hard with it.I PROMISE.Kalau berani,sila lah. :)

Bowling session with p.O.g on monday was super gerek.And as usual,tak full strength.Breakfast at Aliff was okay.I still prefer going dere at night.Bcoz god noes how happening that place is at nyte.U can go wash eyes.It was my first tym bowling.So,aku anihow jer lah.But not bad wat.At least i am not last lah.Nyahahaha.So,bowling is an interesting game.I take back that its very boring.Lets go bowl again.Or anything lurh. :)

The mother still refuses to believe dat dis daughter of hers have no boyfriend.She keeps bugging me to tell her who the unlucky chap is.Tu lah,when i got boyfren,u go all out going against it.Now i no boyfren,worried sendiri.Nyahahaha.And so she asked me"Hari tu aku nampak gambar lelaki kat hp kau.Itu saper?".And i was preety sure she was talking bout Mr Sunshine.Dah tau nak step tak tau pulak.Nyahahha.Nanti raya orang bawak dier balik eyh.Tanye lah dier kite ape kene mengene.Hurhur. :)

And so i admit that i love you.

2008-03-02T13:58:00.000+08:00

There are probably a million things that i wanna talk about in this entry but i can't possibly do dat can i.And mak,aku dat start boring ngn anaknyr.Seriously.Aku boleh giler kalau layankan perangai dier yang tak tentu arah. :)

And i have enough of people asking me "Kau aper hal ngn Ashraf".AKU NGN ASHRAF KAWAN.Which part of kawan yang kau tak paham?Yes,kawan mcm aku kwn ngn kau gitu ah.Just because i go out with him and we text each other,it doesnt mean i am with him.Aku dah bingit.Aku dah malas nak explain why this and that.Aku punyer pasal lah aku nak keluar ngn saper.Aku nak keluar ngn Meon ke Ramli ke.ITS MY CHOICE.And kau tkde hak dalam hal ini.Even if kau best friend aku ke ex boyfriend aku.Mak aku tak bising,asal kau nak bising? :)

Eversince not having a boyfriend,i have been returning to the other side of me.The one dat i have ditch a long time ago.The tomboy side.Dulu kecik2, fana tak main barbie doll .Dier main ngn toy cars and main bola kat bawah block.Dulu aku lelaki habes.And for the past weekends i have been playing with sabun.Aku cuci kereta abg aku.I am not one of those gerls who are afraid to get their hands dirty.Aku lebih rela cuci itu kereta dari dudok kat dapur.So yesterday i followed him around to check out car modifications.Finally i went to Silent lah.Cool lah itu tempat.And next wek to Poh Seng.I so so cant wait to have my own car!But i have a lot to learn.Boleh pening aku dengar two way lah,active or passive lah.Itu baru sound system.Mampos aku.And brother,please don't put the spoiler.The side skirt and front lip will be enuf. :)

Some girls can really be a bimbo when it comes to cars and bikes.Kalau dah tak tau,diam jek lah.Punyer lah bising nak mampos.Your boyfren have a class 2B license.Baru pass lagi.How do u expect him to ride a R6?And lady,you were at a workshop.What do u expect?Full blast air con with people serving u drinks?Tu lah lain kali kalau boyfren ckp "You no need to follow",dudok jek lah kat rumah.Kesian kau eh.Habes make-up cair. :)

Oh Mr Friday,where are you?

2008-02-29T14:12:00.001+08:00

Current Song:No One By Alicia Keys

And yesterday was the official dah habes skolah dah.Yes,no more lessons,no more hectic deadlines no more i have to wake up early if not attendance zero.Its been almost close to two years.And gosh,time flies very fast.I am definitely gonna miss the goons.11 March would be the last day at ITE Clementi and after dat,goodbye lah.Wah.Aku akan rindu ramai olang. :(

I am down for the second time in this month.Irritating nak mampos.1st it was the gastric flu and now the fever.But somebody once told me 'If kite sakit,it means ALLAh syg kite'.So,yes.I have been trying to be optimistic.Everytime i wanna scream and swear bout the irritating flu or rising body temperature,that sentence will remind me not to. :)

I had a mini shopping spree with the 2nd sister yesterday.Eventhough i was feeling quite lethargic and the flu was bugging me,i went ahead.A promise is a promise eyh.She bought a lot of stuffs i must say.And aku sakit hati loh.There were so many things i wanted to buy,but because of the lack of cash i was left with no choice.The constant thought of 'Nanti balik aku pecah tabung' ting kept playing in my mind.But since i promised someone that i would start saving up,i had to forgo it.Fana save up tau.Mcm kelakar tak berzaman :)

Oh Mr sunshine please don't play the hiatus game with me. :)

I miss you

2008-02-25T15:07:00.001+08:00

Frontpage is due on Wednesday and i have not even started.Not even a single page.Punye lah rajin aku.The software at home and at aunt's place does't allow me to do it.And school is the only hope.So,yes 4 hrs of AOFA tmrw and i have to complete it.Even if it means staying back at self-access room :)

Very random but sometimes i wonder wether i am adopted.Haha.Adopted tau.I dun look like either of the parents.At least all other 3 sibllings look alike.And i have a darker skin tone compared to the them.And back during the hockey days,i was like the black sheep of the family.Trust me on that.Kesian kan aku.Skali aku adopted eyh?Nyahahaha :)

Dear Mr Sunshine,Saturday was much fun.I am sorry for delaying the time from 3 to 6.I am sorry for dragging you to Boon lay just to send the helmet.I am sorry for playing the sembarang game with you. Yes,kamu sweet.Hurhur.Trust me,you would make a good boyfriend to whoever the lucky girl would be.But for now,you are my Mr Sunshine.I cant wait till March the eleven ends :)

Its been quite some time since i last saw your sayang.Oh when will i be able to meet my number one enemy? :)

What i mean to you is what you mean to me.

2008-02-22T13:00:00.001+08:00

Reading back the archives,i realised how farhan played an important part in the past years.

To be exact for the past three years.

And for that, i thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I loved you with every beat of my heart.

You made me cry but you made me smile too.
You were there for almost all the events that mattered.

But for now,whats left are just memories.

No doubt i wont be able to find someone like you.

You're special in your own way.

And you made me what i am now.

For that once again,thank you.

Trust me,you will find someone out there.

Who is in every possible way better then me.
It may take some time.

But boy,that girl will be worth the wait.

So,i bid you goodbye for now.

And the 22nd will always be a special date for me.

<333

2008-02-21T21:20:00.000+08:00

I don't think i owe anyone an explanation on who i am seeing right now.

Because what matters is that i am content.

2008-02-20T22:19:00.000+08:00

Current Song:Apakah Salah Beta by Imran Ajmain

So,today was a stupid2 boring nak mampos day.The chronic headache is back and its preety much bothering me.Imagine migrane but a lot more worst.But thank god i got through the presentation.Naseb baek.Being the manja nak mampos daughter i am,i dragged Mummy to the doctor.Same old painkillers were given.And i have stomach flu.That explains the constant throwing up.AKU ADE PROVE AKU TAK PREGNANT.Nyahahaha :) Mummy almost fullfilled my 2 wants from the wishlist.The bottom from FOX and the Man.U jersey.But JP outlet ran out of sizes for the bottom and the jersey hav to wait til i go Queensway shopping centre.Mcm siakens.Aku dah happy alam den last2 tk dpt.Sungguh the menyayat hati.Oh yes.I almost bought a Gold Casio watch.Cool nak mampos itu jam but the mother just won't allow.She said it was merepek lah.I agree its a bit merepek.Tapi cool lah kan.Maner adr org pakai itu jam.Belikan boleh? :)

Khai.Khai.Khai.Let me say dis once again.People who who go for looks are shallow.Lagi shallow dari air surut kat Pulau Tioman.You're special in your own way.Don't be deterred ya hokay.Kan aku dah ckp,April kau boleh go girl hunting.Dis tym,aku choose kan kau.Confem boleh nyr.Hurhur.For now,just stay low and go with the flow. :)

Iskandar Shah.You're baaaaaaccckkkk.Dah balik,tak bilang.But tkpe lah.At least you bothered to call.I'm counting down the days,13 March.Goodbye hair in five minutes.Tapi not bad pe.Dpt free haircut.Nyahahaha.Aku zalim.So,can i go and rompak your Ipod video and your ring?Boleh ah.Hurhur :)

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?If you do,try combining both of your names.If tkde,kau feeling2 lah ngn saper2 kau nak.The outcome most of the time would be a girl's name.Go try cepat. :)

Sayang,can i please have your sayang?

2008-02-19T14:45:00.001+08:00

Baby,i miss you.

2008-02-17T14:59:00.001+08:00

Current song: Five Minutes To Midnight by Boys like Girls

Aku happy alam after 0245 hrs.ARSENAL KALAH LAH OI!4-0.My 2 indian boys,be prepared to get tortured with the same set of lines evry single day for the rest of the weeks.Tu lah Hafiz,aku dah ckp.Kau tknk dengar.Summore boleh confident eyh msg ckp 'Go Arsenal go'.Kamu feeling banget sih!Yes,perangai aku mcm sial smlm.I texted/called Hafiz with every goal that went in.And of course he was lost for words.Khai became a victim of me himself.White flag dah angkat pe?Nyahaahha. :)

Friday at Botanic Garden was superb minus all the running around crap.The sad part was that I didnt get the camera that i was planning to bring along.So,borrowed Sis' Lumix.Shots turned out to be okeyh.Not exactly what i was planning to get but the Jump shots was gerek.Maciam susah gitu nak co-ordinate.Hairul's cybershot became my victim.I was happily clicking it away lurh.Must say that 80% of the shots were awesome.Aku promise kalau mak aku nak tukar camera,i'll persuade her to get the Cybershot.But i still want my camera baby!I'm looking forward to more p.O.g outings. :)

And yesterday was a kick-ass session.I had lepak session with the 2 senget people.And again,we went to Botanic Gardens.Mcm favourite place gituk to go.Hurhur.Nurain happy alam because she got to take pictures with DSLR.It was a more of a jalan2 den lepak and take pictures session.Ingin aku katakan bahawa I like to take pictures but i don't like my pictures to be taken.Don't ask me why.Intan left early because she had dinner.And so me and Ain proceeded to MS for dinner and to window shop.Aku swear kalau aku adr duit smlm dah lama aku angkat itu seluar FOX and baju Puma.Nice lah oi!Tankiew Nurain Bte Kassim for entertaining me the whole of last nyte.Kan aku dah ckp.I am in depression mode.Yes,aku tau perangai aku mcm org mabuk.I cannot even imagine lah if i were to be drunk.Confirm buruk nak mampos!Oh yes,kiter terserempak dgn the boys.INTAN PRAWESTI,AKU NAK GAMBAR! :)

What you told me,was it an explanation or an excuse?It has come to a point where i can't differentiate them apart.Just come clean with me and tell me what you expect out of this.

Life is not as easy a s 1,2,3

If you think it is,

Then you're wrong

That is when equations come in.

2008-02-14T18:07:00.001+08:00

Muhammad Farhan Bin Kamsani.Since you say i am not honest at all,even as friends.Mari aku jadi honest.I have always been scared of the later part when we meet.Yes,only god noes dat.And everytym it happens,i bear and face it.But,its okay.Like what i have been saying.Apa kamu mahu,saya ikut.Apa saya mahu tidak terdengar.And when you presented me with the chance to speak up,i no longer have the will to.Okay tkpe.Farhan,kau yang nak end everything and kau yang tknk aku in kau nyr life even as friend,aku ikot.And sekarang is the ryte time to start deleting you,Muhd Farhan Bin Kamsani from every aspect of my life.Starting with the many folders i have of us in the computer.I promise this is the last time i am gonna cry because you.From this minute onwards,i am no longer forlon's.And aku admit that the initial break-up is purely my fault.I wont deny.But it happened.And i know ure preety glad that u have finally put a fullstop to everything.I am glad myself.So,go find that girl that completes you in every way that i can't.Find the girl that is a total opposite of me.Trust me,this time it will work out.Good Luck with life.Good Luck with Lost perfection.Good Luck with school.Good Luck with silat.Good Luck with the new love.Good Luck in everything.Selamat!Jumpe kau kat Rp lah geng oi!

2008-02-12T17:22:00.000+08:00

Can i please have one of these?I prefer the red one.But the gold element on the black watch really attracts me.But i really want the red one.Do you mind buying for me one of them?I know you don't like the idea of buying something new when the current one is still working.But please lah.Buy for me then i won't irritate you for a whole month.No wait,maybe a week.Please baby? :)

Kalau lah bapak aku owner of Mustafa centre.Nyahahaha :)

2008-02-10T22:48:00.000+08:00

Current Song:Three Cheers For Five Years by Lost Perfection

The past few days was filled wif Paramore's songs.It have been in the repeat mode.But when i heard crushcrushcrush,it only reminds me of 1 thing.Lost Perfection.Yes,aku rindu budak2 senget tu.Hisyam,my 98 companion.The one that always gets d 'Jaga matair aku eh" from farhan.The one dat will constantly ask me wat tym 98 comes.Rauf,my Hot stuffs companion.The one dat talks to me about cars.The one that bebual merepek sometimes but i never seem to get enuf of it.Zaki,the brown eyed hottie.The one dat is the shy2 cat but sebenarnya tidak sama sekali.The one that aku promise evrytym he sings,aku boleh cair.And lastly Farhan.I miss everything.Seriously,i miss them. :(

Let's put all the missing you people aside.I had a great evening at Chinese garden wif the 2 kick ass people yesterday.Boleh tercabot kepala aku ketawa.And boy,be nice to me.Kalau tak aku bilang Ashraf!Remember eyh.He is just a msg away and 15 mins away from me.Nak aku jemput dier tak next week?Nyahahaha.Aku tau aku evil.And woman,i'll be your photographer in 10 years tym if u give me the equipment. :)

So,just now was the 1st S.G.P pergi jemputan session.We felt as though we were going jalan raya instead of jemputan.Juz now was a totally alalalala session.Eh hitam,aku nak kenal2 ngn kwn kau yang cuci pinggan tu boleh?Tapi tkpe,aku tetap setia ngn Abg Ash aku lah oi!Hurhur.The pelamin was super nice lah boleh.Mcm tak sabar gitu aku nyr turn.Tankiew Mummy for the invitation. :)

Fana:Mana boleh aku matair ngn kau.
Khai:Ini bukan boleh and tak boleh eh.Ini antara nak and taknak.
And aku went silent bcoz aku tkde pape nak counter balik.
But a few hours later,I found sumting to counter him back.
Fana:Eh.Ni kau nak ke tknk?Aku ambikkan.
Khai:Wah.Syg jugak kau kat aku.
Fana:Sayang lah.Aku sayang kau.Kau jer yang tak sayang aku.
And dis tym he went silent.Happy alam beb. :)

I'll still love you even if the stars don't shine anymore.

2008-02-06T22:10:00.000+08:00

Current Song:Betapa Aku Mencintaimu by Vagetoz

FOUR days of being stuck at home.Ah mampos.Sungguh the tak gerek lah kan.I still cant figure out what to do over this period of tym.The PSP will be the number 1 companion followed by the teevee.Alahai! :)

Today,was very much well spent.Met up wif Nurain after skul to have lunch and then went over to her house.Aku sumpah Shaza getting cuter by the day.Pinjam boleh?Hurhur.Oh yes Ain.Aku happy alam bcoz i got to see Amsyar.My stand is still the same."Kalau tkde matair,dah lama aku masok meminang".Nyahahahaha.Aku had a crush on him for so long lah boleh.But too bad lah. :)

Have you ever noticed on the increasing number of bikes in ITE Clementi during lunch.Wanna noe where these goons come from?These goons are actually from ITE Dover.Yes,the oh so gatal nak mampos Dover boys.I am not accusing the Dover boys.I have prove.Just yesterday,Mr Khalid Hafiz was in Clementi.So,i asked him.Asal eh kau kat skolah aku.And the answer is "Utk mengizinkan mata aku melihat keindahan2 yang terdapat di clementi".That i quote from him.I still dun get how an okay looking tapi cute nyr boleh tahan wif a jambu nak mampos kalau boleh aku nak curik KR still don't have a girlfriend.Ia amat menghairankan lah.And the other hot property on myspace and memang boleh tahan hot in real life wif a jambu KR don't have a girlfriend too.Yes,Muhd Ashraf.I still wonder.But not too much because i know why.You sweet nak mampos! :)

I cant wait for March because you being a sweet human being am bringing me to places that i have been wanting to go.Sesungguhnyr,saya teramat-amat menyayangi kamu :)

The world love still scares me.

But will you be the one that will change everything?

2008-02-04T20:53:00.000+08:00

And in our story,let time make all the decisions.

2008-02-02T11:32:00.000+08:00

I am meeting Nurain Bte Kassim later lah.To be precise,i am fetching her from werk.Yes lah.aku happy alam.Aku rindu itu anak kassim many-many.Nasib baik kau tinggal and keje at the same area.If not,jangan diharap.It looks like fana is so gonna either waste her money on cab fare or walk home.Oh ah eh.Abg Ashraf boleh hantar fana balik?Ah mampos.perasan.Nyahahahaa. :)

Oh yes.Mak aku buat aku happy alam.I had a mummy-daughter outing tingy yesterday since friday was a non schooling day and all the other days are either spent at the happy place or going out wif friends.I had 2 main topics to discuss.

1.The new camera baby
Verdict: "Kau masok poly dulu baru aku belikan;insyaallah."
2.The bike license and the bike baby
Verdict: "Jangan mcm-mcm.(sungguh expected lah).Pass lesen kereta dulu.Lepas tu kau nak amik,amik lah.Tapi motor beli sendiri"

Wahai ibunda yang tersayang.Kamu sesungguhnyr telah membuat saya happy alam.I want the 2 new babies by this year.The car baby boleh rilek 1 corner dulu eh.I wanna get either the BLACK KR baby or the RED GILERA RUNNER baby.Sungguh menyentuh hati lah.Yes.everything have to be either black or red.That or aku taknak.Tetapi for the car baby i dun mind a white STI :)

Today will be a great kick ass Saturday.Am spending it with the 2 most favourite people on earth.Meeting the boy at 1430 which most probably i would be late for.Pernah tak aku bilang kau aku suker buat kau tunggu?Nyahahaah.And then it will be the usual kau decide ah nak pegi mane coz aku tak tau nk go where session.Sesungguhnyr,saya suke buat begitu kat kau.Boy,can i take you to the happy place today?Den 7 hours later,2130,i am meeting the anak kassim.Mari lah lepak! :)

2008-01-31T17:26:00.000+08:00

Current song:Tentang Kita by Peterpan

Yesterday's Napha was very much pain in the ass.2.4 suck big time lah.No elaboration needed.And so yesterday evening was spent at the happy place with the 2 wonderful people though 1 was very much late.And i had my dosage of the nicotine.Yes lah.I have not quit entirely.I know,very dissapointing indeed.Boy,you sound so gay lah boleh?You want me to introduce you to Ashraf?MUHD ASHRAF is SINGLE and DATE-ABLE.I didnt know you adore him that much sampai member cut hair pon boleh perasan.And aku tau kau jealous bout his KR kan.I know,Jambu.Hurhur.Okay.Main2 jer lah okay.And sarcasm takes practise lah.Jadi,kau slow2 kayuh lah eh. :)

PR presentation is D-O-N-E.Like finally lah.Balak aku dah lepas.Balak korang next week baru lepas lah.Today is just a salah day lah.Many things have gone salah today.And the pain is still killing me.Hari ini adalah hari semua anggota member p.O.g ingat Allah s.w.t.Hurhur. :)

Semalam aku mimpi laki orang.Aku tau.Sungguh tak senonoh.Aku mimpi Abg Didi.Kekek nak mampos lah.But mimpi itu mainan tidur.So,its a laughing matter evrytym i think about it.I dun want someone's husband lah.I just want his white jambu nak mampos kalau boleh aku nak curi car.Nyahahahaha. :)

How can i not possibly worry when i hear all those things from you.Keyword here is TRY.Stop being so pessimist and things will eventually get better. :)

Stay close and please don't go.

2008-01-28T17:15:00.000+08:00

Current Song:Always By Bon Jovi

Sometimes you wanna tell someone how much you truly love/miss them.You wanna tell them how much they play a part in your life and would reali want them to be there for you in present and future.When that someone's presence just make you feel right though some actions are wrong.You wanna ask them out but you are no longer that special to them and you're just like the others.The present situation just don't allow you to do such stuffs them.And the list of when this n that can go on.Seriously,YOU let yourself done.

I swear when Khai hugged me just now,i could have cried lah.Coz he reminds me of Farhan.After 2 weeks of running away from him i miss him.He is that'aku feeling-feeling kau matair aku' fren in school.Eyh.Aku nak peluk kau lagi boleh? :)

School was okay today.3 hours of school,saper tak suke kan.And we proceeded to JP to have lunch and then to lepak.It was much fun and the discussion of the chalet somehow has begun.Wah.Everybody bringing somebody.Den i not bringing anybody.Wah.Nanti malam2 sume pegi hilang ke mane and aku left alone.Confirm by then the boys will have partners of their own.Kesian eh fana. Carikkan aku Ashri ah!Nyahahahha. :)

These foolish games are tearing me apart.

2008-01-26T12:20:00.000+08:00

Current Song:Risque by Cute What We Aim For

Its been a week;a soild week.I miss you.But too bad.You're busy with her.Understandable. :)

Lets put that aside.Yesterday i had tonnes of fun i tell you.I went window shopping wif Ainah,Lina n Nisa.Yes,Nisa.1st tym Lah kan kau ikot kami.Had dinner at Tong Seng since i desparately was in need for the chicken rice.Lunch plus bebual tak tentu arah was super duper fun.Proceeded to Bugis Market after dat.Went Looking arnd but i had my main reason for going dere.Yes,it was a heart pain session.But wif d help of the girls,i managed to get it.Juz what i wanted Lah.Lyk how jambu is my new baby Lah.Den we went for a jalan jalan picit camera session.Cik Nana was the model of the day.She hav always been Lah.Everything turned out to be super*15963 times hawt nak mampos.I truly like one of the shots.MUST do it again hokay lovely people?Just bring the camera and i can go clicking away. :)

Khai,i swear you are such a sweet human being(sometimes).I don't need you to sing for me,but kalau kamu nak sngt den apr salahnyr kan.I'll be waiting Lah.And i am totally in love wif the song.Oh yes people.Stop it wif the Dadddeeee tingy can?Irritating nak mampos lah boleh. :)

Cousin scored 16 points for O Level.Overshot 2 points for the course that he aimed for.But he is going Ngee Ann Poly aniways.And while his kakak?Lets just wait and see wether she will get her admission to EM of H&H Management. :)

You give me feelings that i adore.

2008-01-22T20:42:00.000+08:00

Current Song:The Right To Write Me Off by Amber Pacific

Life have been going in a very monotonous way.School have been great.Not may things are bothering me actually.That is a good sign :)

Oh yes.Aku happy alam Lah boleh?Yesterday's practical was so worth my $68.48.Nyahahaha,Why u ask?Simply bcoz the instructor looked liked Taufiq Batisah and Fadel and a small amount of Ashri.Yes,imagine the excitement Lurh.Aku happy alam Lah geng!So much that i had to irritate Farhan wif it.Kalau every prac dpt kamu,for sure hari2 aku dtg itu BBDC.Hurhur :)

Today's afternoon was spent at the happy place.Just to watch the sun set and the oh so nice skyline.I made a new friend who is very much interesting.Yes boy,i am over-friendly at times.Tapi itu ikut pasang surut air Lah.Nanti aku pergi rumah kau,aku curik camera kau eyh.Hahaha.Looking forward to hanging out wif you two again.Because you two kick ass.And jangan Luper bawak syg nyr eh :)

Mummy,can i have a new baby?PLEASE Lah boleh?Not that i don't treasure the present one.But i just want a new one Lah.In R-E-D.Beacause i think its a super duper cool colour.But that colour is so salah for me since i am sticking wif d whole black n white ting.Even my car is gonna be 1 of the colours.Ok wait.Back to the question.Can I?Can I?Can I? :)

ISKANDAR SHAH.Sesungguhnyr,for the first time,i truly like your hair colour.Maybe bcoz its the Last tym ure ever gonna do it.Tapi seriously,saya teramat-amat suka.And saya rindu kamu Lah boleh? :)

Baby,i miss you.

Falling for you again was just a big mistake.

2008-01-19T12:42:00.000+08:00

Current Song: Tempat Terindah By Ungu

Yesterday's outing with the Lovely six was A-W-E-S-O-M-E Lah.It was the first tym dat all of us came together.We went ECP for cycling.The first 10 mins was torturous but funny in a way.Ayu and Ain went first leaving me and Syafy trying to figure out what to do.We couldnt stop Laughing i tell you.Mama Ro pro Lah kan.Nyahahaha.There were a few screaming moments when we almost hit each other.But everyting turned out to be okay at the end of it.Made a move from ECP at 8+.It was a total sakit pantat and kaki session.But it was so worth it.And every friday will be ECP day :)

And so i changed the skin AGAIN.Because i was getting sick with the oh so yellow skin.And to top it off,i dun Like that colour.Someone also commented on how emo the skin is.Emo ke?Okay per.Den nak mcm maner punyer eyh?Yang ader cartoon characters?Nyahahahaha.But i am in Love with this skin;for now :)

I have come to a conclusion.Since its so hard to find a very descent partner who rides a KR.I wanna get a bike License.But whats hard is the convincing of the parents and the funding of the license and bike.For sure the parents wont be funding me even a cent Lah.For sure they will say "Tak manis Lah perempuan bawak motor".Nyahahaha.Mcm aku tak tau.But haven't they realise that this daughter of theirs is not that much of a girl?And the 1 thing my mum will surely say is "Takde kereta/motor,balik dah Lambat.Nanti dah ada entah balik ke tak."Nak bet?Oh yes,to top it off,i am a speed demon.Nyahahahha. :)

Why do i have these feeling that you are not telling me just everything that i should know?Just come clean with me. :)

I want my white Evo II!!!! :)

Because i truly miss you and there is nothing i can do about it.

2008-01-15T16:59:00.000+08:00

School have been okay i guess.The trip to IMM was truly indeed menyeronokkan.Bahasa baku times was Lagi best.8 more weeks Lah kan. :)

Idk why but i find Farhan lagi sweet skrg.Not to say u were not Lurh.But now,kamu lagi gerek kan.He called me pelita hati.Which i dun tink he even noe wat it means.But anything Lah okeyh.Yes,you are the Lucky charm.Make sure you're available next Monday and also the following ones.Oh yes.Farhan jangan jealous okeyh?I have ASH on my New Urban Male card.Bila saya free baru saya go tukar eyh.And trust me,dere wil be a lot of ASH coming up on cards.Nyahahahaha.Tetapi,sesungguhnyr,saya menyayangi kamu. :)

Practical lessons are doing well i must say.I passed 2 subjects yesterday.My turning of the vehicle still sucks.And i still get that feeling of takutness everytym i see a motorist.To add to it,different instructor teach different things and so,it confuses me a whole LOT.But i am glad i am improving.I travelled at 65 Lah kan.Wanted to accelerate faster but mcm takot pulak kan pegi Laju2. Aku tak sabar nak dapat license! :)

Aku nak matair bawak R Enam boleh?Carikkan boleh?Aku tak cerewet but he MUST Look Like Muhd Asri Bin Zainal.Nyahahahaha.Siakens habes!Tapi tapi tapi.Kalau tak dpt R enam,KR pon boleh. :)

And you,STOP LYING.I still don't get you Langsung.You never change do you?Always playing the guess my next move game with me.It have come to a point where i might just give up.And yes,i have finally understood on why the sudden change of hearts.YOU NEVER FAIL TO DISSAPOINT ME. :(

And i ask again,why?

2008-01-13T22:14:00.000+08:00

Friday's orientation was superb Lurh.I was doing what i like the most.PICTURES.And new friends were made.Syam's performance simply blew me away.But sorry Khai,u dun melt me anymore.Not after you lied and than merajuk out of nothing.After having Lunch at school,i rushed home had a shower and went out again.To watch Dan In Real Life wif Ashraf.The movie was okeyh Lah.Not that bad.Walked home from the interchange and i saw a rainbow.Its been a Long tym since i Last saw one.So,imagine the excitement.But being Ashraf,he ignored me.Mcm nak kene tapak gituk kan.But i got my revenge back on the way back :)

Saturday was spent with Sister.Watched One missed Call at The Cathay.Lagi satu movie yang very the tak bagos Lah sngt.Instead of screaming along,i was actually Laughing at the girls who were screaming.I know.Perangai mcm siakens.It was a very Loud Laugh.After the movie we walked to Raffles City than to Marina Square.We went shopping.I think i overspent this month.And i think its about tym dat i start saving to get what i want.Can somebody please stop me from buying stuffs that i don't actually need? :)

And today was spent with 2 of the most favourite people on earth.The ex boyfriends.Though they are the ex boyfriends,i still adore them to bits.Confem korang ckp aku giler kan keluar ngn ex.Nyaaahaaahaaa.Mmg aku dah giler pon.Ashraf had to Leave early and so farhan being the sweetest thing on earth followed me to Lunch.And yes we culdnt stop bickering.But i dun call it gaduh.Kite kan beramah mesra.Thank God nephew was working.So,he gave us a discount.Thankiew Din.After Lunch we went to lepak.And aniways Farhan.Nak pegi Klangkawi?I pay,u just follow.Amaciam?And I hope nenek will get well soon ya. :)

Exactly 2 more months Lah.Sungguh tak boleh sabar. :)

I need you more than you need you

2008-01-09T18:04:00.000+08:00

Current song:Gone So Young by Amber Pacific

Due to the tahap keboringan yang meningkat.I am here to update.Though i really find that there is no need to since nothing much actually happened.

1.Mr Muhd Hafiz Bin Amin.HE IS NOT MY BOYFRIEND.So,stop saying that i have a boyfriend.As far as i am concern,i am SINGLE.Get your facts ryte.Just because i talk about him on my blog,doesnt mean i am attached to him.Gundu!And i promise you if u get a sports bike(which i don't think so) i'll blanje u Lunch/Dinner.Macam paham Lah kau. :)

2.And the word of today is hoohaa.Tanks to Mr Chow.Lunch at Macdonalds n merepek-ing during PR made my day.Seriously.Korang boleh buat aku gila.I havent had this much Laughter since i dunno when.So,terima kasih.Can i have this everyday? :)

3.Mr Iskandar Shah.I know you are reading this.When i say my life is in a mess,i really mean it.So,don't doubt my words.Make me smile again can?Sesungguhnyr,aku rindu kau! :)

4.And once again,i am in touch wif Man.Who is he?A Long time best friend.I met him yesterday at the playground.He sat at the swing beside me and said."Come on now.I know you're so much more capable than this."I didnt exactly believe what he said but no matter what,TRY is the keyword now.Oh yes.He even accompanied me in school today!How fun. :)

5.I think making fun of a religion is so not cool at all.Especially when its your OWN.Yes,it may seem funnyBut when you think about it,aper yang klakar sangat eh?Kalau org Lain were to do the same thing,would you be Laughing just as hard?And memang kau yang ckp and dosa kau yang tanggung.But please remember that there are people around you who don't want to listen to all these stuffs.Directly or indirectly,confirm kiter dengar.Kirekan kiter pon dosa.I am not here to pick up a fight.But please be a bit sensative.So,be unhappy wif me if u want.And jangan ckp "Kalau berani,cakap kat depan ah".Sebab aku dah ckp kat depan and korang tak dengar Lah,aku post kat blog. :)

6.Sorry Syafy syg for breaking the promise.The temptation was too much and adding to the things that i am going through,i just Had to.Sorry. :)

I wanna go these places.
1.Botanic Gardens
2.Mount Faber
3.East Coast Park
Baby,would you bring me there?

Ah.Iye lah tu.Mcm paham.Saper entah nak bawak kau fana.Aku feeling2 ajer!But seriously,i wanna go to these 3 places. :)

And i thank you for the love you gave to me

2008-01-08T17:36:00.000+08:00

Current Song:Kasih Mengapa by Rauzan

One Last time.MY LIFE IS IN A MESS.Okay now.Lets put all that aside and think of positive things.Right syak?Wait.I have always been to the negative side.Nvm.

I chopped 2 1/2 inch off my hair.Yes,i have finally decided to cut my hair after much thinking.It took me 2 days to think about it.It may seem mcm sikit gitu but its a LOT if u see the Length of my hair.And itik i am being the jackass now.Confem kau tkkan suker tengok the length of my hair now.But too bad ah.Bear wif it Lah.Kalau tknk bear,kau tak yah jumpe aku.Lagi senang eh.Tapi kan aku pon rase rambot aku mcm pendek gitu.Ok tkpe.Hair will grow back okay fana? :)And where the heck were u when i need u?Hilang di alam misteri pe?

Biler nak pegi sheeeeeeeeeessssshhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaa Lah?Aku dah tak boleh sabar nie!Can u people just clear a day when we can go out.PLEASE LAH!I am in desparate need of a non healthy way of making myself feel better.Cepat!cepat!

Lets take life an hour at a time :)

This pain is just too real.

2008-01-08T17:12:00.000+08:00

There is not a single day that i did not wish that all this never happened.Simply said,i regret.But Like what you said,it happened.After the conversation we had that day,it truly woke me up.It was like a slap on the face.Mcm bapak aku sepak aku gitu ah.Yes.I am the foolish one here.I cry to sleep every night and still do everytime i think about us.Yes,i am that pathetic.Because of that one decision.MY LIFE IS A COMPLETE MESS.
I swear i just wanted to dial your number before my practical yesterday.Because it have always been you who have been calming me down.Yes,up until today i still am nervous about my pracs.And i culdnt concentrate;resulting in me barely passing it.And after the prac i picked up the phone and again wanted to the same thing.But i forgo the idea and called Syak.I swear i culd have stood on the side of the road and continue crying or go to Esso and buy a pack.But woman,thankiew for the werds.Yes.I repeat.MY LIFE IS IN A MESS.
Good Luck for your gig at DXO.Knowing you guys,i know all 4 of u will do very well.I'll try to make it. :)
Call me pathetic but the only way i melepaskan the need to hear ur voice is through three chears for five years.Yes.MY LIFE IS IN A MESS.

2008-01-06T13:22:00.000+08:00

Current Song:Apologize by One Republic

TOMORROW IS THE DAY I HAVE BEEN DREADING FOR.The start of the new term or semester.Whichever it is.10 more weeks of school and then goodbye ITE Clementi. :)

Looking at the 2nd registration,bdk2 nyr boleh tahan sombong.Mak oi!Blom masok skolah muker sorang2 nak mintak kener smack!And the sentence of the day on Friday was.Confirm plus chop nine-one.Kan?Kan?Kan?And i ment frens wif Abg Subaru.Huahuahua. :)

And so i went out with Itik,Syafy syg and Muhd Azmie to town.Maciam dah Lame gitu kan tak pegi Town.No,it was not a DOUBLE DATE.Thankiew Syafy for the Coffee Bean.Saya sungguh appreciate it a LOT.And as usual itik was out to irritate the shit out of me.And again he managed to.I swear if i were to spend the whole week wif him,i would go gila.But nevertheless,i had FUN.And you're returning to school tmrw too.Naik kenderaan tu baik-baik Lah eh.Jgn nak main try2 eh.Mentang2 nanti dah adr geng.Perangai jgn nak melampau! :)

I'll be going off to Auntie's house in a while.Dear Cousin d/l games for me and i'm collecting dem.Resha is off to Palembang and Jakarta tmrw.I am so gonna miss that idiotic gundu!Shuld be back b4 O Levels result is out.Have a safe trip okeyh cousin! :)

Azura!Kau diam eyh.aku tau aku dah naik.Tak yah remind aku eh.Siakens betol.

You made me smile so please stay for a while.

2008-01-02T12:46:00.000+08:00

Current Song: My Immortal by Evanescence

I am sorry but this time we have to go our separate ways.Call me selfish if u want but ryte now,this is the best way i can think about.I dun wanna hurt you and i dun wanna hurt myself any further.Yes,all this may have happen too fast but what i feel now is what i have been holding on for the past 2 years.And i cant Lie anymore.I am sorry.For now,lets just consider us not being in each other's Life anymore.One day,u will know who he is.But i would rather you find him out yourself rather than me telling.Yes maybe what i am doing is cheating on you.But i am just going out with him as a friend.Say what you want.I am okay with it.Sorry and goodbye.

What a start to 2008.Maybe i am regretting the decision but life have to go on.But nevertheless,yesterday's trip to Bugis was much fun.Though half of the tym u were irritating the shit out of me.Aku still sayang kau Lah itik!Thankiew so much for yesterday and so on.For now,i am happy with the way we are.F-R-I-E-N-D-S. :)

Sesiape nak belikan aku helmet baru?I still want the Evo II.In white.Can?Can?Can?I have the black one oreadi.Fana takde duit Lah sekarang.Itik,buy for me can?We half2 or something.Mcm itu akan terjadi kan.But ur syg jambu Lah kan.I am happy for you. :)

Goodbye Nicotine :)

There is too much that time cannot erase.